Kenn

Everywhere

2010-06-07T10:23:00.000-07:00

My heart is beating faster as usual whenever I go online, knowing that you have a chance of seeing my email. What reaction would you give? Is half a year sounds timely enough for you already? I'm obviously hoping for something.

I really do hope I could have a reply from you, in the end, I'm just following my feelings, it might hurts you but it is something I know I have to do, cause you are still everywhere to me.

I really had to thank Phebe for that night, she is really someone to count on. All along I thought of her as like some nerdy head, but she knows more about me compare to myself. She knows my feelings for you is substantial, and I have been spending half of the year searching my heart back, never know that all along it never sways or moves an inch.

Weird thoughts starting to come up from my mind, thinking of there is a slight possibility you happen to not checking your mailbox, or your eyes may play a trick or twits on you. I chose to believe that you actually saw it and you obviously needs time to think through it. I don't mind waiting on, as long you give me a reply.

I walk past to the place where I used to wait for public transport today, there was the time when we are like bubble and gum. The waiting pole is still there, but obviously things are very much different already. We can be two different entity living in a small world but fails to intersect, I wonder such things would crossed your mind once in a moment.

Do you still remember those times when we were really enjoying ourselves? To me, I thought of it all the time.

Stuck in the moment

2010-05-17T11:29:00.000-07:00

It's been ages since I last typed a word here. I guess this blog is long deserted right now, even by its owner. That serves the purpose of this post, cause I absolutely don't want anybody to read what I will penned later on. I know it's kinda weird for me to say this, but this is my story. I authored it, and I will be my own reader.

It's been a long time since I really studied. Its kinda like an excuse for me to blog right now, because I'm suppose to squeeze all my brain cells right now. Yeah, blogging a while won't hurts right, Kenneth Cheng?

Let's see, what happenned since the last time I blogged. Fall out with you, got on with collegemates, saw Alonso, watched iron man 2, went Hong Kong? I just realised those are the little things I wanna shared with you, but lets make my blog as a communication mechanism for both you and me.

It's weird that its almost half a year we didn't talk, but every motion or notion that you utter still linger in my heart, strongly and persistently. I don't know what this weird feeling is? It's more like I missed your presence besides me, I missed those times when I will be your listening ear endlessly. When I would just sneak downstairs just to call you, speak softly so that I won't woke my aunt up. We humans are like these right? We only truly miss someone and appreciates that person's worth, only if we lose her/him.

Changing the world is always my dream, did I told you about it? I still think that this world is propelling, but its not the ideal world I want my future generation to live in. You might be laughing at me right now, talking about changing the world, where you can't even change the person around you. I might not know how to do it right now, but I think I will figure it out soon or later. I'm still learning.

Right now, those haunting memories came back to me. You said I was a different person to you, I was fake, I was always interrupting people's problem, I was always choosing sides. To be honest, I tried changing, and may you be the judge of that. I still remember I posed you a question, will our friendship continues, you told me to give you some time. Is half a year enough already?

I know, sometimes maybe a simple text will do. like a How are you? How you doing? Truth is that I just can't bring myself to you at the moment, but I never give up on our friendship. Your facebook page is always a place I look on to, I was real happy you are propelling too. I'm glad, honestly.

Hardship may comes, but always remember you have your family to depend on. If your family happens to fail you, you could always count your friend. Your life was blessed with sooo many good friends, so cherished them. Nah, its crap to say all this old man shit, I know you will. You know, Kenneth is still Kenneth. =)

On a brighter note, I like this girl right now. I always wanted you to know her, but too bad I only had feelings for her after we two fall out. She is a nice, pretty, sweet, loving, kind one. I bet given a chance, a whole new situation. You two would be good friends, and guess what she's from KL. I still remembered you are asking me why can't I just like girls in KL. That reminds me of old time.

While I was typing, the times we shared together just kept flashing in my mind. Sometimes, I would just look at your pictures and laugh like shit, simple grin, or the usual small laugh. I really missed you as a friend, it hurts that the method right now is the only way reaching out to you.

Enough of those whining, gonna get some sleep soon. I felt so relaxed right now, its like we had just talked. hahaha, still thanks and sorry.

Hikari

2009-12-28T09:26:00.000-08:00

I wonder what LCL stands for all the time?

Why you need to share your very own existance with beings that are different with you,

So,you could just have absolute knowledge on what the person besides you are thinking.

I prefer thoughts that I created exist within my boundary only,

so I can remain what they truly think about me.

Wouldn't it be a better place to live in,

Where people would decieved by their own fictionalised fantasy.

It reminds me of a song,Beautiful World.

I kinda understand why some people prefer to be instrumented right now.

It disposes of those sadness,along with what you been hoping for.

Love Conquers All

2009-12-13T07:54:00.000-08:00

Forever You My Girl

Forever You My World

14th of December 2009

The story continues on.

2009-12-04T04:40:00.000-08:00

Life is easy now,but still there is something that hinders me all along.Sigh.

People change do they?

Ever since the day my mum gives birth to me,people kept changing to adapt to the situation.

Why would you conform,when you have the limitless potential to change the world.

Sorry.

2009-11-29T04:12:00.001-08:00

I don't know I'm doing the right thing this time,
But,right now my blog is the only listening ear I could find.

Sorry for making you felt that way,
I absolutely have no ideas I could hurt that precious heart of yours.

Take care,guess we won't be seeing each other for a while,and for the time being,I will miss you.

A Kiss That I Never Wanna Miss

2009-11-24T07:57:00.000-08:00

Life is all about giving out.The Wedding Dress still keeps playing in my head like crap.Something like paying tax,it's unavoidable.

Felt the urge to update my blog,but I'm deprived of inspiration currently.Trying to gain some sleep,but think that is such a waste of time.

Watching the video countless of times,but never failed to get bored with it.

Juggling my phone with both hands,figuring is it the right time to text you,at the same time worrying about you.

Looking at the countless people that kept passing by each day,wondering would I met you accidentally

Driving the same path over and over again,but never failed to discover new enlightenment within it.

On a completely unrelated note,going back to ipoh this thursday,but loved ones are having exams.Shuckks

Wedding Dress Plus A Bit Of Let Me Hear Your Voice,Mixtape Volume Miss You

2009-11-21T03:24:00.000-08:00

I miss you,honestly

Cause You Should Be My Lady

2009-11-13T08:13:00.000-08:00

Wedding Dress-Taeyang(Big Bang)

I would argue

Then you would cry

As you are struggling,I would only get stronger

My heart aches behind these shadows

My face brightens up as I see your smile.

I'm worry that you might notice my feelings,

which you already did.I get scared,

that the gap between us would widen

I hold my breath,

bite my lips.

Throwing away my phone doesn't help,

cause it's the only way I could connect to you.

Once the music ends,you would be with him forever.

I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn't come.
The wedding dress you once wore

The wedding dress you once wore

The wedding dress you once wore.

14th of November 2009.

The story continues on.

I'm Barely Holding Onto You

2009-11-03T08:16:00.000-08:00

It's hard being left behind.I waited for Henry,not knowing where he is,wondering if he's okay.It's hard to be the one who stays.

-Clare

I know it's hard to wait,cause you might need to wait a lot more longer compare to people around you.But that's exactly what set you apart from others.The imperishable joy of seeing that plus one.That truly defines what true love is.

Enjoy the movie,it is relevant to everyone.Hate it or not,in some point of our life,we have to choose between moving on or waiting upon.What really differs between it lays on the mind of yours.

As Clare has waited her whole life,her determination breathe in new hope to my life.

Thx.

She Is Falling Into History

2009-11-01T05:11:00.000-08:00

Currently listening to Falling Into History-Avril Lavigne

I always believe words and songs are the best way to change people lives.I write endlessly,to see people around have a shot in his life,rather than conforming to the social standards.I wanted those I cared to be different,to be a positive examplatory figure which everyone would find joy in knowing them.

I serenade,to witness the joy of others.The satisfaction manifests through their smile is a mesmerizer to my heart.What matters the most is the intention of the singer.As long as they see joy in the eyes of their spectators.

I never thought this could really happen,I have to agreed time has a way of passing by.People always leave,that's why there are heartbreaks visible everywhere you go.Maybe you are still in love with him,but the fact of not comprehending each other well enough serves as a barrier between you two.He cares about you more than his own life,it is a drawback for you.Being confined by love,you felt that it is a pain.

The hand of him tried to reach you desperately,but all he sees is your shadow.It's not the undoing of you nor him,but the sin of being felt divided.

People are struggling,so do I.A small degree of hope could turn into love.Maybe that's why you two fell in love.But now,he is falling into history.Phone calls can solve nothing,begging in front of you seem meaningless.

Till a point,where people forget about the existence of your love.Pictures are the only best proof that you two indeed shared a bond together.That is history.

When the guitar is being strummed beside me,Lavigne's vocal swirling around my ears,saying that "Im define,confined by love."Sadness starting to give birth to itself again.I'm quite a emotional person,and I always relate stuffs to myself,blame me for that.To think again,being a loser in love sounds fair enough,eventualy you don't really have to take a risk or chance,fearing that you will lose that plus one of yours.I should feel more content about myself,please with what I'm having already.Rather than taking a risk without knowing its consequences,because a fading image of yours from my sight is the last thing I would want to witness.

On a completely unrelated note,I was hooked up by this song Falling Into History-Avril Lavigne.It really do describes how everyone should feel after a major collision of hearts,and somehow I found it quite relevant to people around me.Sometimes,letting go is a mean for bringing you back,and time is always the solution to something that seemingly insoluble.Each times I listen to it,it seems there is a different meaning being conveyed in my mind from this crazy beautiful song.

There's this particular verse I'm quite fond of.

I never thought that I'd say,that I don't really miss you.I lived,I breathed your breath through me.Time has a way of passing by,until I don't remember why or how to hurt for you.Love's pain has gone somewhere,and I'm finally leaving it here.

Sometimes,I think I'm a bit busybody,involving myself into your ordeal.You have the absolute right to feel mad about it,this I can't take away from you.I'm sorry,I failed to outlook your status,and I'm being too objective.

I thought about a person now,somehow.I told you,my ambition is always to take pictures of you all,post it on my blog,and make it to a song,but think I still have a long way to go.Right?S?

A world where people I care about are happy,sadness ceased to exist in them.It's a tough path.

The Most Precious Thing You Have Given Is You,Yourself.

2009-10-28T06:41:00.000-07:00

If I can't see you, if I can't be with you.Don't you dare start getting lenient with your thoughts,because this heart belongs to you and only you..

Just something I thought of while I'm driving home,yess I tend to be more poetic and emotional when I'm alone.That's me.

Sometimes,you think of those memories you composed of so far.It is what makes you who you are.Though people will always leave,but things that we did together,went through before.The thought of missing or reminiscing is the utmost love you can offer to that one person.Though you two may break apart,but the memories are substantial,it may not have a tangible form,but its clear to you both it really did happen.

Sometimes it takes a while,or it may takes forever,but this is life.If only you could define your love towards that one person,and I told myself I'm always willing to walk that distance.

I hopped to that loser prom king's blog,and I happened to find out,despite all these self-acclaimed growth.I'm still very much behind him.He is always someone I wanted to be,admire the most,and a big brother to me.He is always that mountain I need to climb,but it seems that there is always a distance between us.

I felt satisfied,because there is always a perfect person I could sing or boast about.

Thanks again,loser.

Im gonna hit off with one of his famous quote,that very much goes relevant to what I feel now.

Love And Time Are The Best You Can Give Me.

It feels strange sometimes,even a more than a year old post never failed to inspire me.May it inspire you stalkers in making every decisive decision in your life.

www.myromanticawakening.blogspot.com

To The World You Maybe The One Person,But To KC You Are The World To Him.

2009-10-27T06:34:00.000-07:00

Much has happened these few days,especially the one hell of a night we had on saturday.That was probably one of those highlights.I love it when my boys are smiling,cause when they are happy,even how down and sad deep inside of me,there will be a shed of light that was created out of nothing to brightens my day up.I always wanted to witness a miracle,and that came in the form of them.Thank you.

People are so busy with themselves.You wake up knowing that your whole day is tight,school,work,leisure,sports,reading.Thus,we failed to keep sight on those things that are truly important.Family,friends,love.When there is time to meet each other,that two hours couldn't even compesate the days you all didnt see each other.A dinner wouldn't patched back everything.A simple phone call can't have the same effect as meeting face to face.Despite all these,we continue to be selfish.

Masking yourself to the person you fond of doesn't make it sound so nice,because it's a deception.Your loved one is living a lie,and what goes around comes around.

I'm glad I'm free of all those pressure,that is so intense till I see people breakeven from it.I'm still the me that tries to fake my way in,cram every loves one in my tiny lens,be the best of both worlds.

I felt that sometimes people around me compelled to do somethng which I don't like it.I felt like being all my best friend's wedding photographer(for free),and continue to capture smiles and dreams to strangers,and travel around the world,to meet people I'm not destined to meet,and learn Latin dance too.And after everything,capture everything in words form and published it into a book.A book that can change at least a single soul towards his/her perspective of life.

But,I being born into a chinese family,and being the only son doesn't always get what I want.You gotta study for the sake of studying,earn big bucks and live your life like how your parents live it in front of your eyes.Tragically,that's like the mentality of chinese and possibly the synopsis of my life.

Tired of elders being conservative and the so called keeping your child safe in your hands.Sometimes you gotta live out your life,suffer the mistakes you have done or did,and accept the consequence of your actions.That's the true way of growing up.A simple desire of wanted to feel free and live with those I really care seems like an eternity road for me,speaking from a person who embraces the price of freedom.They are retards.

The more I grow,the more I learn from them,the more I think your actions are unacceptable.Till a point,you are forcing me to become a replica of you.I have to live a life that constantly remind of myself who I truly are.A reckless,carefree and concern friends KC.That's me,have a problem with that,cancel me,but don't paste yourself on me.A life that you lived is the last thing I wanna see in myself.

They think their method of educating is the only way,but they failed in seeing their own child's eyes,which wanted something that is not cliche as love.Materialistic love is a fucked up way to make up with your own child.Love is accepting what your child is,and ready to compromise in whatsoever situation,not using cane strategies,and insulting them till they have to be just like you in order to have a stand in this world.Your child is not just another barbie doll of yours when you used to play when you are young,they can choose to move their right hands if you ordered to move their left.This is life,live it out or kill yourself,not everything goes in your way of living.

This post is not meant for my parents,cause they are too nice and good to be criticize.Though they have their own flaws,I will learn to deal with it,as how they had compromised my ever-lasting flaws.This is true love.

My friends may seem insignificant to you,a path which you want me to avoid walking,I replied with a smile could you please get off from my life.Those are the people I want to protect and love forever.Do not ever intervene in my life till a point I will hate you.

Right now,all that matters is my old man,lovely 49 years old beauty,and my ever-lasting IPOH friends.They are the pillar of my life,and they lived inside of me.

By the way,I'm still waiting that day I will truly embrace the meaning of freedom.

I may left out most of my good friends,but you know who you are,and believe it or not that you all are as important as them.

Letting Go Is A Means Of Bringing You Back

2009-10-19T04:19:00.001-07:00

Wowooooowowowowow

Tuesday-Malaysian Studies' Final

Wednesday-Moral Studies' Final

Saturday-Finally,My Boys Are Graduating.=)

Eventful week I would said.

On a completely unrelated note,taylors' dudes are having their A2 soon.The sky will be angry wtih me if I don't ever wish them luck,or do they need any these external aids.

To Lik,Sophia,Jun Xian,Daniel Ho and Jic Key.

All the best in your exams man,fork them like how you play life,and remember to surprise me after ya exam in HELP.I will act surprise though.God bless.

XD.

Now my turn to make things right,

Fudge you Economics,

Fornicate Law.

Gonna make my effort

Fornicate Law,

To A Person That I Don't See Often

2009-10-17T10:14:00.000-07:00

Honestly,I'm envy of you,but most of all I'm truely glad that you are doing fine.Maybe it's because of everything I want to become is resided inside that magnificent personality of yours,and it manifests through that unbelievable charisma.

Thank you dude,you cheered me up,even without saying it out loud.

Your presence already had given me a clue how should I proceed.

Whenever I got screwed by love,I would thought of how amazing you two are perserving the standards of love.You gave me a glimpse of hope,hope of loving someone without boundaries.I felt sick you know,trying to do my best to cheer everybody up.Maybe I should retired a while,and refocus on something else,and for once,to be selfish.

You are one of the reasons why I never regretted going home-schooling

Thanks,loser.haha

Nazo

2009-10-15T09:29:00.000-07:00

As much as I hate to acknowledge it,you are already everywhere.

Dead Rose Blooms In My Backyard

2009-10-11T09:51:00.000-07:00

With every stike of lightning ,

Comes a memory that lasts,

Not a word is left unspoken,

As the thunder starts to crash,

Maybe I should give up.

Standing out in the rain,

Need to know if it's over,

Cause I would leave you alone.

I'm flooded with all this pain,

Knowing that I'll never hold you,

Like I did before the storm.

Before The Storm-Jonas Brothers

The last and only thing I could do now is to dedicate a song that is relevant to what you are going through now.

Lines,Vines And Trying Times

2009-10-10T06:23:00.001-07:00

You felt great sometimes,for doing something stupid,just to make the plus one grin a little bit,it doesnt matter if it's just a split-second smile.As long as it happens.

People are stuck in this reality,wrapped in a space full of other people.People constantly trying to cheer each other up,just so they know.in the end theres is still somebody beside you that cares for your existance.

What if God gives you another chance to live out your life again.Would you become what you should become,or repeat your life again to justify what you had lived is the way of life.

There's so many things I wanna get it right,but somehow I had failed to get even one correct.There are lines,vines and trying times for me.

Price Of Freedom

2009-10-08T08:38:00.000-07:00

The price of freedom,

It's like a limitless sky.

You may have reached it,

But gravity compels you back to gravity.

I guess I really should buck up now,after another tormenting lecturing by my aunt.Its painful because it is so relevant and compatible,that I was left speechless to counter back what she utters to me.

AS,you wanna piece of me.

Then,I just dance to the rhythm.

Study hard,collect the As,and price of freedom is yours.

Sounds easy,right?

KC,guarantee.

Crash And Burn

2009-10-05T21:38:00.000-07:00

Thesedays I'm just nt myself,tried hard to study for the sake of studying.It's not working,I felt sick sitting in front with my notes and just prefer to be alone,a place where I can see no one,and where I could feel free to do anything.

I will be more than willing to sleep through all days,go all out on a journey,step the pedal as hard as my hood could sustain,and be freed from the restriction.A place where I could call home,where worn out jeans are everywhere,and CDs are all over my desk,and pictures of my dear ones are all around me.To be precise,I want my own personal place.I felt that people around me are edging me out,till a point they compel me till a point where I have no space to breathe anymore.

As I went college,different people that I met everyday.I felt that all my principles are being put on a test.Talking about to do whatever that floats my boat,I'm more like comprising myself to be compatible with different individual's stance.I'm tired of life actually,I wished someone that fully comprehend me could just poped up right now,and we will talk till day never meets night.

Its weird sometimes.Nowadays,people are so used to the word LOVE,as they can get on to relationship with anyone in anywhere at anytime and end it like a swift.Do you really mean it when you utter those 3 special words to that angel of yours at that time,or it is sudden infatuation that force you to it.Adding on to that,or are you just afraid of being alone,and you need some company and that so called "angel" of yours just happened to be in the right place at the right time?

I believe in the divine meaning of love,and people should appreciate in this ever changing world,they are able to find someone they truly love and being love in reply.That is the one and only reason why people should be together.Instead people find grounds to escape from love,they tend to blame and hurt others,it doesnt even matter if she/he is the one you loved before.When it comes to this kind of situation,you side with yourself more than your supposingly other half,to be in love is to be selfless towards each other.I can't said that you are selfish,which almost everybody is practicing now,but you are just idiotic in KC's eyes.Your failure to prevent tears rolling out from your loved one eyes,the excruciating pain that she/he has to endure just to reveice your one text that only worth a single penny,the irresistable desire to talk to you when you are just beside him/her,and with that cold heart you possesed,replied him/her with that obnoxious face of yours.

Remember those days when you were so much in love with her,you would go as far to a point that you are willing to sacrifice everything for her,just that she could dance with you gracefully on the dancefloor named LOVE.God never gives up people who don't gives up,in the end,you finally got what you crave the most,which is her love to you.I bet you must be feeling on top of the world right at that time,the indescripable joy you possessed which failed to contained inside that little heart of yours,I bet my tears will come out when I get the chance to witness it.Those are the tears of joy,from a guy who thinks like you.

There were good times in your relationship,but sadly bad times overweighed it.You did everything you could,but she is too difficult to compromise,and situation all around you obviously was not on your side.Yes,you gave up what you wanted the most.You chose to run away from that dancefloor,a dancefloor where obviously has its potential to grow.You ran without a single explaination,nor a single world,which left spectators like us very much in question and discretion.She was left alone on that dancefloor.A dancefloor where both of you had the best times of your life.I can see she is acting,trying to be cheerful.But its an act which fails to do its job.Deep in her heart,she felt lonely,truth is that,shes wants you back on the dancefloor and contunue the flow of the story between she and you.She is still dancing hard on the dancefloor,trying to win your heart back just like what you did to win hers last time.Its a dance so beautiful and mesmerizing,but as she sway that ever dazzling body of hers,tears continue to be visible around her.As nice as the move can be,its a depressing dance.A sight which all of us are not enjoying.Tears flowing out as I was watching her.Those are tears of sadness,where I couldn't protect those that I care.

To my friends who are attached,
Love isn't about becoming somebody else's perfect person.
It's about finding someone who makes you the best person you could be.

To my friends who are heartbroken,
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go,
The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.

To my friends and me who are afraid to confess,
Love hurts when you breakup with someone.
It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you.
But love hurts the most when the person you know has no idea how you feel.

To my friends who are still holding on,
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love,
Only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it.If he isn't worth it now he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now.
Let go.

I thanked most of my friends who making me become who am I now.You all made my life propel to another level and Im glad that we can become good friends,and I hoped that we will continue our journey for as long time can counts.

=)

Thanks.

Still Around

2009-09-30T10:37:00.000-07:00

I was lying on the bed trying to get some sleep before I had this sudden ephiphany to blog.I felt like I could write until the sun come out from my sight.Well,let's hope it won't end.

The night sure doesn't goes well for me,with all the happenings lately.Somehow,I know I'm closer to the truth.A truth that is too hard to believe,and yet I choose to pursue it.

I was drunk at that time,so as everyone else,in this devil town.My eyes was half closed,and yet I see her standing,still around,hanging with her old shoes.I was relieved,to have finally see her face,but there was a slight sadness in her ever cheerful face.It was further exaggerate within my sight.Without hesitation,I stood up and tried to reach my hands to her.She replied me with a clueless look.That look was horrifying till I pull back my half-streched arm.I noticed something,she never lose sight on those old shoes.

I was hanging around till I saw L walked past me.He is the man,such confidence exhibit by him.He was holding S.S was the heart of L.They were perfect for each other and I see greatness in them.Just like L utters,deep in their heart,they know they are always meant for each other.

Cherish you two forever.SL.

Make love out of nothing,cause life is too short.

Two Worlds

2009-09-24T05:10:00.000-07:00

I absolutely adore this song,and Tarzan and Hercules is always my favourite all time classic Disney movie.Enjoy your day,folks.

Sometime,you just need to turn back time till when you are young,when there are no rain in the sky,rainbow is 24/7.

Starting Over

2009-09-23T09:07:00.000-07:00

I realized that in life you can't always get what you want,

That's why they have songs like Meet You Halfway.

Maybe there some stages of life that you have to succumb and give up something in order to attain something far greater that you are craving now.

There were always some grounds for me to dig,especially in you.LOL,I sound so gross.Haha

Still,I spend my time thinking thinking thinking about you.

Foolish Love

2009-09-23T04:13:00.000-07:00

I'm trying to erase your scent now,

I'm trying to forget your touch now.

Why did you have to be like that.

I can't believe it,in the end it have to come to this.

I'm trying to find my life now.

I'm trying to meet my friends now.

You obviously lied,

And like a fool,

I always thought that it was true

Can you please take away all the memories you have made,

I will take them and burn it away.

2NE1-In The Club

I think I'm really falling for you.

I can't stand this anymore.

I should have just told you when we were on the phone.

Would you offer me a chance to make my life better,

The Best Day.

2009-09-20T09:29:00.000-07:00

I was mad with the connection in KL.With this inteference,I was unable to share the pictures from my best day to my fellow stalkers,and I just realized it had been a long time since I last blogged,prolly my life is a bit dull,I guess.

I admit I was distracted for a moment,with all the happenings and doings of my heart.Going back to ipoh with little to cheer on.But all these confusion ends within a second,when I saw you all having fun.The scene was mesmerizing,and the looks you all had upon me,it was jubilanting.As if you all are expecting me a long time.My heart was softened.Without hesitation,I went on wishing the two birthday boys.A simple thanks from them cured my heart instantly.At that split second,I thought it was like my own birthday party.

It was suppose to be a surprise birthday party for them,but it came like a thunder to my heart even though I saw it coming.I can't hide my joy but to manifest it through laughters and appreciation.I tried hard to talk to everyone,but it seems that time gave me less than I had prayed for yet the satisfaction from my heart is immeasurable.

Firstly,it was a thought from my mind,but yik and peeps made it a plan.In the end,YW and Bing propelled it to an act.Cluedos to you all for making my best day of life came true.

I had a excellent father,

I had a wonderful mother,

Sadly,life gave me no siblings.

Yet,It was always there.

With a different way.

Thanks.

And,Happy 18th Birthday To Two Of My Best Bros,Daniel Ho and Teck Nan.

~Friend Is A Person With Whom I May Be Sincere. Before Him I May Think Aloud~

Btw,details and pictures of the party is located in http://www.leannewen.blogspot.com/.

Enjoy!

You Got Me Coming Undone

2009-09-08T07:16:00.000-07:00

She is like an angel,

Maybe it's true,

I can't live without you.

Kiss To Bid Goodbye

2009-08-15T09:00:00.000-07:00

I don't really get it thesedays,

Maybe its me.

Gosh,blame it on the holidays.

Maybe one bad thing about holidays is that it makes you ponder on meaningless stuffs.

Still,I spend my time just fucking phunking thinking about you.

All the days I'm really missing missing missing you.

Life After You

2009-08-03T07:42:00.000-07:00

I had this so called the most challenging task in my life of A-levels so far.Yea,the freaking mock exam of law,and to be honest I can't remember a single thing I studied just now.It only furthers demotivate me to depart from those mountain-like notes.

Well,maybe I give it a rest for today,still I have two more days left to redeem myself before the actual D-day arrives,but,tomorrow is LAN day and I have to stay till 7.Nah,screwed it laaaa.

Going back ipoh next week with the three weeks holiday,but still clueless with the freak exam?

Well,time to Big Bang I guess.

Haha!

B-I-G

BANG

Chua Chong Aun Is So Handsome

2009-07-26T06:40:00.000-07:00

Not gonna blog about the craziest saturday I just had in my life so far.But,still there are always grounds remain for me to search,and I found two important perspective that could quite change the way I'm dealing with both friendship and love.To my surprise,the views are derived from two important quotes that I picked up from two good friends.

I went in to the shop and found lots of stuffs to buy for you,but when I saw what I'm holding now at that point of time,I told myself,this is the present I'm getting for you,and it is the reason I'm not eating rice in the following month.

-Ah Fee to Bobo(the gift is actually a gold medal for best friend in life)

Honestly what kept us from holding us together is trust,having faith and honesty.

-Bobo to yours truly in regards on how to maintain and build a strong relationship.

Well,we maybe having tough choices to make,but that's life right?Today,you all taught me how to love friends with no regrets,and I owed you all for that.

Yea,last but not least.Happy 19th Birthday to our beloved Bobo.May what you planned for go right on your course!

XD

Obssesed

2009-07-24T08:53:00.000-07:00

Why you so obssesed with me?Boy,I wanna know.

It's because in your simplicity,I find everything that I need.

Boy,why you so obssesed with me?

Your eyes that make me gaze,your lips that make me swayed.

Take me away from all this,
I would continue to miss you,even though I know it doesn't even floats my boat.
which contradict my way of living life.

But,She Is At The Borderline

2009-07-15T06:28:00.000-07:00

I find that most of the time,I'm saying things that contradict with my personality.

I always claim that I'm a straightforward person,but truth is that I have been hiding everything in front of you.

I told my peep I'm on the halfway,but reality is that I haven't even journey myself yet.

I told people faint heart never won fair lady,look who's talking now?

But as always,

I would cross the bridge,just you and I

I would fly to sky,for you and I

Nah,fuck off Kenn

All crap...

I'm Meeting Her Halfway

2009-07-12T08:20:00.000-07:00

Big Boy's Toys

Jetfire Leader ClassIronhide Voyager Class

These two are my most sought after merchandise thesedays,I lost out a chance to pick up for myself the ironhide the other day.A regret that is still traumatizing me.Hopefully,this weekend i will be able to collect these two freaking sexy figures in time,and Human Alliance Sideswipe.haha.I can't afford to miss that too.

Back to life,HELP is the real deal to study.I felt that after going into college.I'm propelling both academically and spiritually.All thanks to bunch of good peeps I know in there.I just wanna said thank you to ya all,you cheered me up,make me got out from the past and most importantly, we have fun together!

Meet Me Halfway Beautiful

2009-07-08T20:26:00.000-07:00

I spent my time just funking fucking thinking about you
Every single day yes, I'm really losing gazing missing' you
And all those things we use to use to use to do
Hey girl, whats up, it use to be just me and you.

So I would say,can you meet me halfway.

Meet Me Halfway-Black Eyed Peas

Anybody care for a late birthday present for me,this album will works perfectly.

You Got Me

2009-07-02T05:15:00.000-07:00

Nothing brings me down,
When you're around.
It's like zero gravity.
The world just disappears when you're here,
It's zero gravity.
When things get messed up,
You lift my head up,
I get lost in the clouds.
There's no sense of time with you and I,
It's zero gravity.

Its beautiful when I'm with you,I wish those times would have last forever.Crashing the skies with you,in Zero Gravity

ILY!

Slow Rain Sends My Last Words To You

2009-06-27T23:37:00.001-07:00

I've Been A Victim Of A Selfish.

Kind Of Love,

It's Time That I RealizeThat,

There Are Some With No Home.

Not A Nickel To Loan,

Could It Be Really Me.

Pretending That They're Not Alone?

>Man In The Mirror

I'm staring the man in the mirror,telling him that you should change the way you think,to make this world a better place.There are people dying outside,a change in him can heal the world,for him and I.

Everyday I Sit And Ask Myself,

How Did Love Slip Away.

Something Whispers In My Ears And Says,

That You Are Not Alone,

I Am Here With You.

>You Are Not Alone

I saw shadows of people,walking past me.Each with endless to speak about.Someone is left stranded at the left corner,carrying its Nike bag with one hand.He seems searching for someone,so that he could find someone to relate to.He has faith people are not meant to be alone.I walked past him slowly,praying and hoping that his faith will be rewarded in some ways.

Now I believe in miracles,

And A Miracle Has Happened Tonight.

But,If You're Thinking About My Baby.

It Dont Matter

If You Are

Black Or White

>Black Or White

United we stand,divided we fell.My old man used to tell me that,we may have different religions,different languages,different coloured skin,but we all belong to one human race.The people of the earth is one big family.

From love to dance,then till saving earth.You have done a lot for our generations despite the allegations you have endure.I still think that the good side of yours always outweighs the contrary side of yours.A passing of an icon is sad,but your influence and spirit will always stayed upon the entertainment industry forever.

Rest In Peace,MJ!

Fantasy Collides With Reality

2009-06-26T19:57:00.001-07:00

She's not eight foot four,but with seducing blond hair on the floor

Singer,Actress,Songwriter and now second-turned rapper..

What more can we expect from this lovely lady.

=)

Totally in love with her,if only she ever comes to M'sia.

Love Song For No One

2009-06-21T01:49:00.000-07:00

This is a post dedicate to someone I care>

People are fragile,but it is not tangible.We are divide to feel for each other,care for each other,to make him or her feel that we are actually bonded in a way our eyes failed to gaze.Family is important to us,Friend that always be with us.However,it take one special person to rob away all those you care about.You feel like the world has failed you,with just moments to live on.You are totally discouraged.

You felt that you lose it all.

It seems that you already say never to him,but in truth you could never say never.You tried to hold a smile theseday,a smile so hard that I could feel it here.Still,I fake it with you.Consenting it will lead to something special.Regardless of it,our attempt came undone because of who we are.We are entity of feelings,which make you fell so deep.

When the story ends,he will be written as someone that hold dear in your life.That's your call.The same damn problem you have been bothering with,I will eradicate all of them for your sake.For your joy is the first thing I would wanna protect,and your sorrow is the last I would wanna speak of.

Picture you are the queen of everything,a world under your command.As far your eyes can see,it seem that you are nothing without him.Love comes more than that,it can build you thoroughly,or destroy you in a split second.

It takes a moment to fall in love,but there is more that meets the eyes.Your sight would failed you,cause you to see what you want to envision.Whereas,heart wouldn't go astray.Follow your heart my dear.

I was driving when I got your text.My heart was dampened by it.After all that you told me,I start to take up the pieces and try to fix it.Maybe its a process,a procedure to discover who you really are.My good ol' friend used to told me why we have only one heart,whereas we have two legs,two hands,two eyes and two ears.The other heart was given to someone else,for us to find it,and merge it back to our very own heart.I thought it was super lame at that time,until I can't stop laughing,but that's what I thought of when you told me those things.Maybe he is the one that your other heart is not belong to,that's why its difficult.

I know you hate this one,but this is where the story ends.

-The Fray

You are constantly falling in and out of love,take care of yourself my dear.I could write as much as possible,but all it take is for your heart to be submissive upon my word.Be strong,I know you can!

Absence Makes The Heart Grow Fonder

-William Shakespeare

You Are Better Off Yourself

2009-06-12T03:48:00.000-07:00

Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that it was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
You're better off that way

Don't think that your charm and the fact that your arm is now around my neck.
Will get you in my pants I'll have to kick your ass and make you never forget.
I'm gonna ask you to stop, thought I liked you a lot, but I'm really upset.
Get out of my head and get off of my bed.
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that boy, the one who, throws it all away.

This guilty trip would not harm me cause I have done no wrong.

Don't Tell Me-Avril Lavigne

The song suits our scenario PERFECTLY

You were once my best damn thing,but where are you now?

Sigh

2009-06-12T03:43:00.000-07:00

I had a unpublished post,which I'm still figuring whether I should post it.Maybe it's time to have a change,truth is that we can never be the same anymore.

If Lik was here,to crack some jokes in front of me.

If Nan was here,to tell me all the gossips and Ipoh happenings.

If San was here,to cheer me up whether I'm in good mood or bad mood.

They are all in Ipoh now and I missed all of them.Nah,I made my decision,and it stands firm from the moment I made it.

Until You

2009-06-07T04:40:00.000-07:00

Transformer's frenzy is back again,this time it hits me even harder.I felt like spending all my money solely on Megatron And Optimus Prime.Well,If I ever cashed in those sexy toys.I would be eating honey stars in college until August.So yea,my conscience prevented me from getting those figures.Still,it's a decision I regretted.

Thesedays,I found it hard to find someone that has the same interest with me,except Lik.For example,collecting Transformer's figures.Before I know him,I thought I was the only one who is still toying and craving with figures and models.People tend to develop a kind of mentality that toys are meant for kids.Well,I would conclude them as conservative.Lucas said I have weird interest,whatever!

I need cash or to be more precise I need an OPTIMUS PRIME or MEGATRON captain class figures,with a level 4 transformation.

By the way,don't get me Bumblebee and Fallen,I owned it already.(This statement is reserved to mum and dad,if they ever visit my blog.)

Toddles~

It Feels Like Nobody Ever Knew Me,Until You Knew Me,
It Feels Like Nobody Ever Love Me,Until You Love Me,
It Feels Like Nobody Ever Touch Me,Until You Touch Me,
Baby,There's Nobody,Until You

Until You-Shayne Ward

Monochrome World

2009-06-06T08:22:00.000-07:00

Its the truth if I say you are my eternal lover,
everything in the past is like never fading aways.
Never knew that love could come and go just like that,
waiting for you day and night in my dreams.
Summer flow in the night, take a flight and glow,
That's forever love

Only you are missing,
the world is so colourless now.
The depth of the damage is beyond definition,
those lips of the day are still warm in my cheek.
But even if I'm keep remembering them,
I'm at loss at what I supposed to do.

Star,Light............Heaven

She Can't Sees The Smiles I'm Faking

2009-06-05T09:42:00.000-07:00

I have been fighting,screaming and kissing in the rain,and that's the way I love you.

Why do I have these strange feelings of falling in love again,the emptiness of missing someone,the sorrow of not seeing her.

I failed to comprehend all that,perharps love already put its hand on my shoulder,again.

If she only ever sees me as a different person..

I stoned at my table for a moment,with my worn out jeans,a staint of Baskin Robins is still stuck there.Resting my head on my palm,trying to recap what had happenned these past few months.Immediately,my attention was distracted by swaying flowers beside the door.When was the day I used to appreciate these tiny little things that always succeed in cheering me up.I started to think again.

Fight For Love

2009-05-27T06:48:00.000-07:00

Cause I cant keep on,
feeling the way I do
I cant keep on,
Hiding my heart from you
I gotta say something before
Someone else comes through
I cant keep on

Loving you, from a distance

Can't Keep On Loving You(From A Distance)-Elliott Yamin

There is more than just waiting for you,my girl

Just The Girl I'm Looking For

2009-05-21T08:49:00.000-07:00

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

Owh yea btw,nice weekend

XD

Bye bye,long hair

Slow Dance On My Bed

2009-05-19T09:08:00.000-07:00

I was surprised that actually I have weird taste for JPop back then.Hah.Those silly old days of me.

Anyway,Screw you ELS

Fudge you,Economics

Fornicate you,Case Law

Something to cheer on,I had decided to go back to Ipoh next week to do some soul-searching,anyone feel like catching up John Connor with me?

XD

Oh Baby,Inside The Raging Wind,
The Flame Of Truth Is Flaring Up.
While It's Ok To Become Free,
You Are Still Inside The Cage Of Yours.

Everyday Inside That Cage,
I Just Want To Be With You

Everyday Inside That Division,
I Just Want To Be With You

Everyday Inside That Revolution,
I Just Want To Be With You

Everyday Inside That Chaos,
I Just Want To Be With You

Just A little bit of yours truly enigmatic state.

Too Close For Comfort

2009-05-18T02:57:00.001-07:00

Nah,I need a break after all the recent shits that happened to me,the worst part is I could only find comfort from that one person

He was that kind of man who determine to lose it all.

She was the girl that keeps knocking on her heaven's door.

I was the fella who is mesmerize by her enchanted beauty.

People may have lose a sense of holding up something that is vital to them,whereas letting go is a kind of act we as human always practices.It is much easier to letting go rather than holding up something that exceed your shoulder could carry on.Maybe there is still a dim chance you could cross the finishing line,but we as human sometimes lose a kind of ability to have faith.We failed to grasp on belief that once make us so strong.We blackslided from it,we might even go as far as cursing it.

I always lose something,till a point I felt like giving up.There comes a time I got so used to upset I started to think maybe life is fucked up after all,we are created out of randomness,eventually every single matter living on this planet will go back to randomness.Life made me so hard till a point I started to doubt my very own existence.

But we are divided to share something of supernatural,bonds that could make us stand by ourself,God that makes us so strong in our life.I never lost faith once before,I always believe the God that created me will eventually lead me back to him,where I meet my ends.I was once eluded from You,but I'm glad for my family and friends that got me back up.Faith is believing something without seeing it,and I considered it as a gift from heaven.

People may have failed you,but God would never will.I got it from a very good friend of mine,and it would be my maxim forever.

We maybe having tough choices to make,but most importantly is to follow your heart...

You Can Only See Light From Darkness

2009-05-13T08:08:00.000-07:00

When Darkness Turns To Light,It Ends Tonight

Everything will just be fine my dear,I promise I will create that light again for you,even it takes a million steps to reach it

Live Long And Prosper

2009-05-08T05:51:00.000-07:00

Favorite Alternative Band-The All American Reject

Favorite Rock Band-Linkin Park

Favorite Band Of All Time-Big Bang

Favorite Male Singer-Ne-yo,Justin Timberlake

Favorite Female Singer-Avril Lavigne

Favorite Brand-Topman,Pull And Bear

Favorite Hang Out Spot-Infinity

Favorite Place-E-Tiara..=)

Favorite Song Of The Moment-Crazier By Taylor Swift

Favorite Food-Cyber Chicken,Nando's 1/2 Chicken With 2 sidelines,Nasi Kandar Dengan Gua Ikan Masin

Favorite Man-Barack Obama

Favorite Woman-Jennifer Anniston

Favorite Friend-All Of Them

Favorite Subject-Economics

Favorite Musical Instruments-Saxophone

Favorite Cousin-One And Only Lucas Foong

Favorite Villain-Sylar

Favorite Actor-Denzel Washington

Favorite Actress-Scarlet Johansson

Favorite Movie-Transformers

Favorite Book-The Miracle Worker

Favorite Sport-Football

Favorite Sportmen-Rafael Nadal

Favorite Colour-Purple

Favorite Season-Winter

A post to know more about the person you stalk always.

=)

Like Spock always says,

Live Long And Prosper

XD

Knock You Down

2009-05-05T03:58:00.000-07:00

God separates us as separate entities,is for us to feel love,pain,sorrow,joy.We may be hurt in any ways you could describe of.Pain of losing the one you love forever,sorrow of the person you admire drifted from your palm.You maybe feeling what I am feeling right now,lonely and despodent,you feel unmotivated in every aspect of your life.

How you wish you just have the courage to realize your crazy dreams,you should have tell your parents how much you love them before it's too late,how you wish you have the nerve to tell the girl next door you like her since the day you saw her..

Sometimes when love knocks you down,just get back up,and have faith again.It's not the doing of love that caused you this state.People you once loved and cared may break you down,but God and love would never fail you..

Your Miss Independent may be not so independent after all,the promises she made unto you might turned out to be a buy out clause for her.Mr right is not Mr Perfect,they can't always be the perfect boyfriend you girls ever wanted.Predicament and ordeal are a manifestation from God and love to show you that she or he is not the right person after all,you must well just break it and patiently wait till God bless you another well deserved love of your own human being,or this is just a break between you and your loved one,you two still have not what it takes to blend it the pressure of this ever-changing world.Break it now to live a better future..

Honestly,I just wrote something I don't fully comprehend.Maybe I'm one of you all,hurt and stressed,desperately need a remedy to get things rock on again,but I never lose sight of thing that I truly believed in,a world with love everywhere,is a much better place to live in,but people just get smarter and cunning and start to twist and divert it till it lose it's meaning and purpose that it intend to be...

Nevertheless have faith in God and love,to those who suffer heart breaks,don't give up on love,instead let go of your own mistakes and start living a better life..

Sometime love comes around and it knocks you down,just get back up

-Keri Hilson

Happy life,guys..Never lose sight on God and Love

A big thanks to all the friends who stay through my shit and stuffs,I can proudly announce to you all that I'm real FINE now..

I Still

2009-05-02T00:51:00.000-07:00

I still hook on to the song Crazier by Taylor Swift

I still hate the ever changing weather

I still feel kinda sleepy even though I just had a nap for three hours

I still think that I should have spend more time in Ipoh

I still hopes that I can meet up SL before my college starts again

I still can't figure out the perfect solutions for my C1 paper

I still have my mock exam in May

I still figuring how to spend my money,wisely

And the worst is,

I still miss you

Gawd,

Give me a revelation or something similar

Btw,Wolverine kicks ass=)

Crazier

2009-04-30T23:14:00.000-07:00

you lift my feet off the ground you spin me around
you make me crazier crazier
feels like I'm falling
and I'm lost in your eyes
you make me crazier crazier crazier

Crazier
Taylor Swift

Fell in love with this song while I'm accompanying my baby cousin watching Hannah Montannah.It's awesome,could I have another chance in front of love again?

Fuck It,Or Lose It

2009-04-21T07:29:00.000-07:00

Why do fine girls have screwed up boyfriends,with weird style,weird hair,ugly face and of course a big butt.Oh well,this is the one of the fucked up rules in this transacting world.

Like Lyk always utters,Life is like this,fuck it or lose it..

A new revelation for my pro-19 life,present sure doesn't come any better than this

Bonnie And Clyde 09'

2009-04-18T09:16:00.000-07:00

Kiss Me Thru The Phone

When I'm in gym,I serenade it

When I'm eating,I listen to it

I can't even concentrate on my work because of it

I can't even let myself to sleep,until I had enough of it

It has been a long time since I get so addicted to a particular.Well,since JT's My Love,I guess..

Maybe,I'm lonely,or it might be my phone lost its function,and it came in a song form to remind me..Who cares,it just me.

Who's the Bonnie,when you are willing to be the Clyde...

Who knows?

So long!

=)

Postcard On Blue Nights,Farewell In The Autumn

2009-04-17T01:47:00.000-07:00

Currently Listening-My Heart Will Go On(Instrumental)-Kenny G

10 days before I become 19,I composed a list of presents I would like to have for that wonderful day.Good news is that my dad and mum would be giving me cash to shop till I drop

=)

My first choice would be a brand new sneakers,throughout this month,I developed a liking towards sneakers.You are not qualified to become a teenager if you don't at least own one pair of sneak.Color wise,I would prefer purple,sky blue or yellow..I know,weird taste,but that's me..

It was adoration at first sight,when I have my eyes on these pretty little object.DKNY red delicious is just the one you need wherever you are.If it wasn't my new MP3,I would have possessed it that day in Mid Valley..

Yea yea,I know the critics,but who cares.Topman is still the one and only brand I'm willing to drown with.It does come better and better with this pair of skinny grey.As I previously stated,I missed it out on Student Lock-In,but I'm not gonna let things slip from my plam for a second time..

=)

That's about it,I still have a lot of stuffs I wanna get for my birthday,like a Mini Copper Model,Armani Exchange Slippers,Topman Jumper,Pull And Bear Tee,Graffiti Tee and the list goes on and on..I gonna go check out for a while,darn tired from the usual college routine.Luckily,I have my sunday with my family back again.Enjoy stalkers,and have a nice weekend...

=)

She's Just Not That Into You

2009-04-10T08:01:00.000-07:00

I looked damn fine in that grey skinny I tried it on Topman,but after some soul searching,I decided to go against my liking.Well,to be more accurate,I'm in the midst of my worst financial meltdown.What the world is happening now,happens to me too.

That's about it though.Topman Student Lock-In is fun,but it was depressing seeing people taking away my grey skinny and purchased it.

My Very Own Life In............Technicolor

2009-04-09T05:22:00.000-07:00

People talked about heartbreaks when there's a fall in relationship.One heart gets the freedom and joy they longed for,and the other one was left with a broken heart to mend and wound to lick.What defines a true relationship or a feeling that you have for a particular person.I don't know any single of that.I thought I caught the glimpse of it in my process of growing up,but reality just compels me to unlearn everything and I'm back to square one.

What's the standard in love,a feeling that comes out of nowhere,or the fulfillment of seeing the one you care repay you with love,I don't know any of that before this..

I feel the wild wind blowing now,a demon toying with my heart.I felt betrayed when she utters those that I'm afraid,words are like a knife,sentences are like a spear,but I'm pinned down pragmatically to accept it as a fact.The fault to accept it reluctantly and obeying it soundlessly is the biggest mistake I ever conduct.

After all,I have very bad eyesight,that goes to what I envision too.I thought I saw light and grace in your eyes,but it turned out the other way round.Maybe my judgment was clouded,or my conscience itself created something out of blank,to allow me to see what I wanted from you.

It is a harsh and violent world,where people settles for second best,but they don't realize with just enough of determination and tenacity,they would ultimately at the threshold of their dreams.I always put it as a proverbs,a maxim of my life.In the end,I fell victim to my own ideology

If gravity is what makes us stand,then love is what makes us live.Love between families,between friends,between lovers,they are the potion of our life.I failed to comprehend you are not the one and only remedy I could have in my life..

Our life is like a clip,a motion picture.The world is a big stage where we are free to perform and be what we intend to be.For a moment my life is monotonous,a stage where I can find no one else.The tree I usually see after school,the path I need to walk back home,it never changes.You came from nowhere and gave me colors,the tone I very much needed for the rest of my life.Yes,you came and bless me with all that,but I had mistaken you as someone more than a friend.I treated you like an individual I would cherished forever,but life is too long to decide who you should be in my life,that caused us to fall apart.As I stated,there's still very much things I don't discern,but all I know is that I have to move on both for your good and mine.I admit I'm greedy and selfish,I don't feel like letting you slipped from my palm and just wished that I could stuck with you forever,but the love I had for you is far greater than that.It's my one and only wish to see you live freely and happily like a bird in the big blue sky.Having knowledge of that,I always felt that my presence in your life is more like a distraction and burden,I came in a form of demon to divert you.Nevertheless,I have confidence I can restore it,and there will come a time where we can sit down together beside a swaying tree,under the reflection of moonlight,and truly enjoy the very essence of our friendship..

Until this very moment,I still love you as much as I do,but your stance in my heart has slowly yet surely turned into an entity what in this world called friends.My life is always surrounding you,what would be the day when I truly let go of the one that gave me the color of my life..Until that day comes...Thanks,Emily

Until this very moment,I still love you,but your stance in my heart has slowly yet surely alter into an entity we called in this world as best friend.May you find love in your life,and I'm more than happy to see you grow both in our friendship and your life,Emily.

The Man Who Can't Be Moved

2009-03-27T09:21:00.000-07:00

Typical Lucas Foong

Make Sure Thing Won't Let You Down

Happy 18th Birthday!

=)

Ohh yea,I will be back with my college life update....Stay Tuned

Happy Birthday

2009-03-23T05:42:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday,Emily Soon Wai Chin

May You Have The Bestest Birthday Celebration At All Time This Year

This Song Is Dedicate To You

24/7,You Are Everlasting Heaven

24/7,Heaven Let's Go

=)

May I have the privilege to celebrate with you every birthday of yours..=p

It Take A Touch To Take Me,And A Kiss To Seal It

2009-03-15T09:27:00.001-07:00

My Joy for the victory of Liverpool is clouded by the fact I'm facing a dilemma,that bothers me the whole day.I admit I'm not that kind of guy who gets angry easily,but what I find in all my mum's advice is patronizing and OFF I went,Bang Bang Bang..

I did not mean what I utter just now,it's all from the act of rush and anger.I'm just being pissed because the bond we share and care does not help.

Being Fed With The Wind Of Whirling Blossoms

2009-03-12T09:20:00.000-07:00

Time after time
The miracle of meeting you
In a city where we both grow up
We walked a path through the hills hand in hand
And made an unforgettable promise

Time after time
Alone in the city where I failed to grasp hold of you
Goodnight is the only farewell gift you left me
Can't return to when things were fine
In this very same place, just like on that day
With my face strewn with tears, I waited for you

Time after time
If I had not leave my hometown
Things won't turn out the way they are now
I wouldn't need any more promises,
More than anyone else
You are so easy to love
I want to be with you--this time, forever.

Its Ain't Worth It

2009-03-11T08:43:00.001-07:00

I searched all places where I could hide from my sorrow and agony,but this is the only place I could indulge myself into.If you wanna break it,be one with it.I'm gonna end it once and for all with this post.I'm sick of doing all those waiting stuff,is like waiting a star on my balcony to drop in front of me.People always teased and laughed about me,I reply with a smile acknowledging that they never know what love is,but in the end I'm the one who truly don't comprehend the word LOVE is...

You leave me where only wounds to lick.

Maybe we are............

So goodnight,goodnight.May everything works out for you just right

Love Is On Its Way

2009-03-10T08:24:00.000-07:00

So hold on another day
Cause love is on its way
You'll find it's gonna be ok
Cause love is on its way
Its alright you'll find a brighter day cause love is on
its way

ILY,MUM
Happy Birthday.....

Dedicate to the most beautiful and prominent figure in my life,

BIG BANG IS DA BOMB

2009-03-03T06:36:00.000-08:00

Currently listening to-Big Bang-Wonderful

Wonderful

[GD] 2008, we’re back
(woo) it’s all about you sweetie
it’s so hip
to get a lil something like this y’all
let’s go BIG BANG second round

Chorus:
why are you being so shy, don’t be afraid and come closer
you’re wonderful (you make me crazy)
i can feel something special from you, tell me (what it is)
you’re wonderful (talk to me baby)
[SR/DS] sometimes it’s hard, feel tired, fight occasionally, feel hatred
[YB] but know this, believe that you are the only one
you’re wonderful (you’re so amazing)

[GD] ma ma girl yo love you are a home-run, you’re out of this world (strike)
don’t be sad, don’t be afraid, leave everything to me
i will be next to you always [YB] (i will protect you)
i will fill your side you’re my my my my girl i’ll be your man

[TOP] i will protect your happiness and sadness, i will only deliver warmness
i am a strong mazinger who is always next to you
people are jealous of us, maybe that is making you more afraid
don’t worry about it now, you just need to think cool i don’t care
(T/N: mazinger is a japanese robot. silly GD)

[SR] (if you are alone) if you are same as me
[YB] (if you want) i will be your friend
[SR] (if this night feels long) if you need me
[YB] don’t hesitate and come to me i need you right now

Repeat Chorus

[TOP] yo yo honey honey have some confidence
why are you being furtive like a fool; why do you become so small like others
don’t be shy about light skinship on the street
girl you are different, you know i want you, so i am more attracted (to you)

[GD] i scream on the rooftop, i draw you so the night sky can be filled
my heart beats again from the thought of you, a song reminding me of you locks me in a fantasy
high high not too fast high high not too much
high high we so fly alright nothing can be better than this

[SR] (if you are alone) if you are same as me
[DS] (if you want) i will be your friend
[SR] (if this night feels long) if you need me
[DS] don’t hesitate and come to be i need you right now baby

Repeat Chorus

you & me everybody to the top go go, you & me everyone follow go go
you & me everybody go go go, you’re wonderful (big bang bïg bang)

I can't resist my temptation but to post this song up,because it is so brilliant in much ways,as well it resonates my current state..

Baby,maybe you are thinking it is impossible for the both of us to be together,but always have faith in me,I will always make you fly,high and of course the happiest girl in the world.I'm still waiting for the day that you will finally have that special feeling towards me..

It took one look and forever you are held inside of me,one smile then I died only to be revived by you.And to find myself coming back to you,my one and only one and only you....

You Will Never Walk Alone

2009-02-26T01:33:00.000-08:00

Reason to be happy for today,Summer Gan?

I guess the picture tells it all,Haha

BTW

Even the support of our world number one and newly crowned Australian Open champion is not enough for Madrid to snatch a win from Liverpool..Sorry,Rafa

=)

Mona Lisa

2009-02-23T05:27:00.000-08:00

I was tagged by dear Summer Gan two days ago to do this happy tag.I was supposed to write something happened on that day that makes me happy.Well I was kinda busy the previous two days,as I was preparing for my college intake.Let's just hope Summer won't get mad at me for cramming three days of happy stuff into one post

=)

Day 1-21/02/2009

The thing that particular make my day is that I get to spend my lunch with Daniel in this Korean restaurant.We spent big on this meal,but at least we really got our stomach filled up.The food is easily one of the best Korean food I ever tasted in KL.It's near Taylor's college,just beside MCD.We had fun in there and I met a new friend name Neo,cool name huh?After the meal,I just stayed at Daniel's place a bit,then went back home to have dinner with Uncle Patrick.I'm happy the fact I get to spend some precious time with Daniel and Uncle Patrick..That particularly sums up my saturday act.

Day 2-22/02/2009

Woke up real late,and had a farewell lunch with Uncle Patrick's family.They are finally calling their asia trip to an end,and flying back to UK.I miss their jokes and humorous acts,especially when the elders are fighting among themselves whether who should paid the bill..This happened at least for five days in a row.I and Lucas are amused by it.After that,stayed at home and watch Stephen Chow's movie.I had non stop laughter when it comes to his movie.After all,he was made that way to entertain us..I was happy when I'm watching his movie.=)

Day 3-23/02/2009

Nothing much happens because is a weekday.I'm happy because it is officially one month before my college life starts and HER birthday.College intake and 'special someone' birthday on the same date..Cool..

Dance Inside

2009-02-17T07:24:00.000-08:00

Someone's finally dancing inside his very own song now.Anyway,thank you for staying with me all the time when I'm having my lowest moment of my life.You truly deserved to be with someone you love..Take care,Dan Wen

Trust You

2009-02-17T07:03:00.000-08:00

Flowers sway in the wind as if dancing
So that the rain moistens the earth
Even though this world is alive, coming closer together
Why do people hurt each other?
Why do partings come about?

Even if you go far away
You’re still always right in the middle of my heart
While they remain completely buried by that kind smile
Even if I feel pain
In fragments of you that I held, because we’re still connected
I believe that we can meet again
I’m waiting for your love

I love you, I trust you
I want you to share your loneliness with me
I love you, I trust you
Even in light, even in darkness
Because we’re together, we’re able to believe in each other
No, please don't let go

I'm back,with a brand new spanking look.Firstly first,current addiction Trust You-Yuna Ito..

Stay tuned for updates

You Don't Even Know

2008-11-21T18:13:00.000-08:00

I promise you I will be fine,just a little bit longer.....

Days Without Your Love

First Day

2008-11-17T17:01:00.000-08:00

While I was driving to work,I heard our song.The song that intrigues my heart with such a permanent effect.The more I think about you,the more guilt will be built upon my heart.Sometimes,I felt like a time bomb.I need someone that truly understands my situation..

I know the love is difficult,but is real

How can I move one while I'm still in love with you

when the song is saying that Dad says' keep away from Juliet.' I think it is an implication showing that despite the difficulties,we will still be together.Do we have what it takes to make it out.

After all,I don't just want to be with you at our eighteens,I wanna stay in love with you till our eighties.

I may seem playful,a guy who is not any better than your ex.I hide so many things from you,but what I pen now is all from the heart.May you catch the glimpse of it,but love me for someone who can't even open the door and pave a way for the girl he loves,

I would always be with you.......

How Can I Move On If I'm Still In Love With You

2008-11-16T08:39:00.000-08:00

I was in a stoned mood,lying on the bed when you told me our relationship is an issue that was dealt long time ago-

I was in a shocked mood when you appear in front of me,you come to here just to witness my graduation-

I'm sorry for saying something that I can't take it back,sorry for letting your soft fragile heart got disturbed by my foolish act and sorry for everything that I did to hurt the dearest girl I ever loved.

You are the world to me,seeing you today just comforts me,but I know deep in my soul,we were segregated by an invisible wall.Though pictures can move us as close as possible,but still I felt a distance between you and me that is beyond my reach.

But,I never been so sure of myself like tonight,I never have a state of mind that is so clear like now.I know those messages that popped up to you is not mere words,nor mere sentences.It contain something that is of real and substantial.I like you since the first day I ever saw you,and it never change even I moved to KL to further my studies,even until the day I graduate.

You are the last person that I ever gonna hurt,but I saw sadness in your eyes today,Obviously,you are disturbed by the conversation we had yesterday,I hate myself for being the one to make you feel uncomfortable,so much of promises that I would be by your side always.

You are the only one I don't wanna lose now,but if the path hurts you in the process,I would give up everything in order to extinguish the sadness of yours.

Till now,I still can't believe I would hurt you by saying something that honest and stuck in my heart for a long time.I would lie to you rather than telling you the truth.

While I was talking to Daniel in the car after the graduation,digesting everything that happened so speedily.I realized I was so stubborn with you,and I should be satisfied the fact we are bestsies for life.I admit to Daniel that the lust of your love is the main reason and never take into account that what you really want,I fail as somebody that really likes you and cares about what you feel.I dropped some tears that had been long gone.I was holding onto a hairband tightly I found in my car and my tears dropped onto it.Before I could finish talking with Daniel,I realize that the hairband is all wet now.Seeing the fact that the hairband contains my tears,I tight into a wrist-band like and put it on.I told Daniel what happen today is something I would never forget in my life.I was being brought to a point where I get to taste the fullest extent of joy,and I was being pulled back into reality by my self-conscious and knowing the truth always hurts.This wristband shall be a resemblance of my love towards she.The wristband would never be without my right hand until the day where I finally met my destined one, This also serves as a reminder to never hurt the one I loved with the purpose of fulflling my own greed.

This song is truly dedicate to you,and I would always be the one by your side just like you be by my side when I'm having one of my bestest nights.

The Man Who Can't Be Moved

Going Back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move
Got some words on cardboard, got your picture in my hand
saying, "if you see this girl can you tell her where I am"

Some people try to hand me money, they don't understand
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense but what else can I do
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you

Cuase If one day you wake up and find your missing me
and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving

Policeman says, "son you can't stay here"
I said, "there's someone I'm waiting for If it's a day, a month, a year"
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go

Cause If one day you wake up and find your missing me
and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving,
I'm not moving, I'm not moving

People talk about the guy that's waiting on a girl
There are no holes in his shoes but a big hole in his world

Maybe i'll get famous as the man who can't be moved
Maybe you wont mean to but you'll see me on the news
And you'll come running to the corner
cuase you'll know it's just for you
Im the man who can't be moved

Chorus 2x

Going Back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move

-I'm sorry,Emily.If only we could break all the boundaries.I will be the man who can't be moved just for you.

All People Want Is Someone To Listen

2008-11-16T08:17:00.000-08:00

Four People

Four Souls

Four Mindsets

One Bondage

Thanks guys,ya all the best.All the way from Ipoh just add on to that already brilliant night.

P.S.-Seeing you two kinda together again,makes me feel better.If ever anything happen to you two,I don't mind doing it again.LOL.
-Jokes aside,I hope you two will really appreciate each other no matter how long distance you two are gonna venture into..Good luck.=)

Priceless Moments

2008-11-16T08:00:00.000-08:00

Before This Glorious Day Comes To An End, Let Me Dedicate It To Jocelyn Tiong May Yen,
Thanks Butts,Happy Sweet Sixteen Yea.

(Since You Like Pink That Much).=)

>Take Care My Dear Friend...

Love You Till The End

2008-11-14T07:10:00.000-08:00

To My Dearest Emily,

Kimi To Boku To 'Sakura Biyori

I'm Already Missing You

Baby,I Wanna See You Now...............

Serenade To You

2008-11-10T03:59:00.000-08:00

Best Thing About Tonight Is That We Not Fighting

I Miss The Time When We Are Shouting At The Idiot Box

I Miss The Time When We Tease About Nan's Girlfriend

I Miss The Time When We Are Fighting About Which Is The Best Team In EPL

I Miss The Time We Spend in 2 in 1

I Miss The Time I Share My Secrets To You All Willingly

True Friendship Never Comes Twice........

Change,We Can Believe In

2008-11-05T23:35:00.001-08:00

What Can You See From This Man?

There is many first and stories in this historical election to be told for many generations to come.But,there's this lady that particularly stood out from my mind since I heard the victory speech from our president-elect Barack Obama.Ann Nixon Cooper who was from Atlanta cast her ballot early this week,she is no different from millions of voters lining up in churches or school to make their voice heard in this election.One thing that is different for Ann Nixon Cooper is the fact she is 106 years old

She was just born after the abolishment of slavery,the time where cars are not on the road and planes aren't visible in the sky.Women can't even reached out their voice to the power and authority.People are segregrating each other by two simple factors.Our very own skin colours and a grudge towards female.It's in fact a world very much covered in darkness.

At a time when there was despair in the dust bowl and The Great Depression is across the land,an emergence of a program named A New Deal by President Franklin D. Roosevelt saved people from poverty.She was there

At a time when bombs fell on the Pearl Harbour and kamikaze threathen the world,people around the world is suffering and moaning.A generation of braves saved the world and we saw a victory in democracy.She was there

At a time when a wall in Berlin symbolize discrimination and segregation was tore down,and President Ronald Reagan gave a speech that it will remain in history as long as history books exist.She was there

At a time when the incident of 9/11 happens,thousands of americans ended the day with tears and despair,their hearts was devastated.We saw a rise of terrorism and a task for us to defeat it.She was there

And at a time,having witness so many changes the course of world history,she believes that there are still changes in the world and her last wish is to see an African-American become the leader of the oval office,the beacon of America,the President Of The United States,and she got her wish fulfilled.

How I wish I could have many years of years to come,to able to witness the change that will took place in this world.I have faith the if we people,segragate from cynism and doubt,we would able to stand together and work for that change.When there was a time,blacks are treated as slave,apartheid is being praticed in south africa.It took a freedom fighter from Johannesburgh to fight for their freedom,it took almost his whole year of life to completely defeat the practice of apartheid

I believe that American has spoken,indeed they had spoken out clearly.They need a change,a change that will indeed inherent the dreams from their forefathers and founders.Bound by two wars,constant nuclear crisis with Iran,and the worst ever financial crisis since century.Perharps Obama has a lot to do if he is gonna fix America to the way it was,but he is not alone.The nomination of a black president signifies that the country that was once divided is no more.Democracts,Republicans,Whites,Blacks,Asians,Native American,Woman,Man are all in this together.They are all on this big ark together and make no mistakes you hold the significance on which way will this ark will go.

Abraham Lincoln once said that 'We are not enemies by friends,though passion may have strained it must not break the bond of our affection.'

I'm seriously joyful about the outcome of the election and I hope he will have all the supports he need to change the world a better place,after all something just attracts me when I first knew about you 21 months ago,and you have the kind of aura flowing out from you that intrigued me.God and destiny may not brought us together and serve in the same country,but our ideals are the same.The world is quite a hard place to change if you are fighting alone,but God created many of us,so we could work together and continue to fight for what we and God believe is right.

~President Obama,maybe both of our fate failed to intertwined each other,but not our idealism.Seeing you succeed as a president will probably boost my confidence and give such comfort that I can't find anywhere else.I believe every single promise,speech and word you utter in your rallies,conventions and interviews,and I have unbreakable faith that you will fulfill what had been promised.From the first speech I heard from you through CNN,I believe you are somebody that will help America propel to next level and is inevitable you will become commander-in-chief of the most powerful country in the world.I sincerely pray for your success on recovering the economy of America and may God and the people of America be your center pillar of your life whichever important decision you made in your life.

~From Someone That Is Earning His Right To Become A People-Lawyer Just Like You

Broken Hearts,Last Goodbyes And Restless Nights

2008-11-03T04:41:00.000-08:00

I never though I would screw something that hard till the part there were three broken hearts left to mend.I hurt a friend that is so important to me,till the part I would share anything with him.I hurt a friend which had founded a new love recently,and I crushed it with my merciless hand,and finally I hurt myself by saying what I shouldn't said yesterday

To a friend that is so important to me~
I never thought my words would have such an impact to you,nevertheless propelling you to reject your first love.I'm glad that you heed my advice,but this is not the best possible ending we three craved for.You should have let your mind be at peace for a couple of days,and seriously think about the conversation we had,and ask yourself why do you like her,why did you do all those stuffs for her and why do you had a bad fall-out with her in the end.Let your mind and God be have the final say in your heart and don't let your tongue got ahead of your mind.Lastly,I just want you to know that you will always be my most important asset in my friendship life,and thanked God for given me this kind of friendship that is incomparable to others.I would stand by your decision no matter how bad you steer it.

To a friend that her new love was crushed by me~
I'm sorry,is the only thing I could say to you in these hard times.It maybe a clause that held no meaning to you now,but it is so intense in itself that I had no words at all in my mind now but these word-SORRY.This whole day I've been searching tons and tons of excuses,trying to avoid myself from this ordeal,an excuse that would took me out of this equation,shape me till the fact that I had no part at all in this incident.But,one single reason beats all the excuses that I had thought of this whole day-I initiated the whole ordeal.If someone would asked me now,who should be the responsible party in these bad fall-out.I would make no hesitation and promptly admit my mistakes and regrets.If only I could soften my word,speak rationally instead of putting in a lot of my own personal view yesterday.I could have make the world looks better to you now,but I failed in a way that even I can't forgive myself.I'm sorry,and I promise I would make amends on my mistakes.

After all,I don't really deserve to love someone or be loved by someone.Right now,I don't even have the thought of revealing the truth to her.This is the most heavy damage I suffered for my own sake.A mistake that may stuck in my heart for quite a while.

~If only apologizing is simple as a red rose

Iris

2008-10-31T22:43:00.000-07:00

~A Path Of Distraction~

~With Stones And Redemption Ahead

~When Can I Find My Ray Of Light In The Darkness~

The Way You Look Tonight

2008-10-31T06:23:00.000-07:00

Don't Wanna Try-Frankie J

'Maybe is because you have everything else,but she's the only thing that you cannot get?That's why you love her?'

Love aside,I haven't been myself lately until I went out today.I had a great time with my peep,and she's one hell of a comforter.Though,we knew each other for a short while,she seems to know every single details about me and what I trying to convey in our conversation.Till the fact that I was made to believe she is a mind reader,GROSS..Maybe the sole reason you were there is to make me better.Thanks partner in crime,by the way you are one of us now homie!

Cluedos to you

-The wonder is Hillary Duff is the third sexiest women for 2008.Oh wells,at least they didn't put Miley Cyrus.LOL.Sorrryyyy Deepan..XD

-Liverpool finally have their best chance of ending their EPL draught since 1990.Even though is quarter of the season,but I'm real satisfied what Liverpool had done so far already.

-Dad and Mum is finally coming to KL.I wanna have a good ol' beer time with my beloved daddy.

-Topman frenzy is still running through my veins,and I'm totally in love with their tight collars.If money grow on trees..

-My school bag is crushed,yess totally crushed.Anybody have the generosity to buy me a new bag,I saw PULL AND BEAR have good ones!

-Aww shyt,I want my first Armani Shades.

-Purity ring is just so hard to find

-What!Buffet for everyone in Hilton Hotel if I ever date for the coming six years.What got into them man!

-I think I'm spoilt in Daniel eyes.

-Awards night is just around the corner,screw that she is not coming.

-3 more books to go before I end my high-school life.Pheww,is such a long journey.

-A-levels in Taylors rocks in my eyes.

-Law is such a hard subject,look what Justin is enduring now.Care for a course change?

-High School Musical 3 rocks in Lucas' eyes...Haha

-Obama is so gonna win this election.(FYI,I'm a great supporter of Obama and the democratic party)

-I felt that I'm putting my 1000D into good use.I'm starting to grow as a rookie photographer.At least one photo of mine got recognized by Zane!haha

As you can see,is just some random fact of mine.The truth is I'm too tired to write my recent happenings.Forgive me my faithful reader,and if you all have the time to spare,do drop by and chat with Kenneth.Kenneth feels that his chatbox so lonely laa,only Sista-In-Law come and chat with me him only..

Just a last fact before I finish penning,Kenneth newest addiction-

If You Want Me,
I Must Be Doing Something Right.
I Got Nothing Left To Prove,
And It's All Because Of You.
So If You Need Me,
And Baby I Make You Feel Alive,
I Know I Must Be Doing,
Doing Something Right.

Baby girl,am I doing something right by telling you how I feel all along.I don't even know whether my love toward you is real or just an infatuation?

Take My Hand

2008-10-28T09:22:00.000-07:00

-Can I Have This Dance-

Take my hand
Take a breathe
Pull me close
And take one step
Keep your eyes
Locked on mine
And let the music be your guide

Now wont you promise me
That youll never forget
To keep dancing wherever we go next

[Refrain]
Its like catching lightning
The chances of finding
Someone like you
Its one in a million
The chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together
We just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance
Can I have this dance

Take my hand
Ill take the lead
And every turn
Will be safe with me
To be afraid
Afraid to fall
You know Ill catch you through it all

Even a thousand miles
Cant keep us apart
Cause my heart
Is wherever you are

[Refrain]
Oh
No mountains too high enough
Oceans too wide
Because together or not
Our dance wont stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know that I believe
That we were meant to be

[Refrain]
Can I have this dance?
Can I have this dance?

The flower and You is as mesmerizing as ever.

You Are Like The Holy Water,Washing Over Me.

2008-10-23T05:59:00.000-07:00

For some unknown reasons, I just can't take my eyes off you.

When you told me you still have feelings with your ex,my heart was devastated.But,there was a
slight happiness in my heart because you are willing to share your ordeal with me.

I don't wanna be someone that is only just your friend,I wanna stayed by your side forever as
someone you could count on eternally.

Your love is the silver linings of my cloud,when will it make its presence felt?

I could only pray to God our friendship would slowly evolve into an element that everybody around the world cherish.

As The Morning Suns Begin To Rise,We Are In The Threshold Of Eternity

2008-10-06T05:23:00.000-07:00

Ever people said kisses is important,especially towards the one you cherish

For Nan and Bing

-Aiyo dude,I am jealous of you having a gorgeous,pretty and family-loving girlfriend.May you two become the living example where we could look upon,appreciate each other as day goes by and love one another like there's no tomorrow!

=)

P.S.-I can see Nan's evil laugh while he is kissing her,what got into him man?!?

=)

Oh yea,I nearly forget about the another sweet loving duo too..Oppps,did I said something wrong back there,haha.let's hope they will be always be happy and may they would allow God to pave a way into their hearts and be the pillar of their decision..No matter what happens,you two are still my homie,though I only know the girl for just a couple of days.

=)

Guess if you all have the time to spare

The wonder is who's brilliant smile enchanted and summed up Daniel's rest of the day?

Kenn-Party Poopers,I must be hated by them now..LOL

Run Baby Run

2008-10-06T05:07:00.000-07:00

Well at least I still remembered my blog password..=)

Sorry faithful peeps,I'm really not into the blogging mood these days.Somehow,my life is boring because I don't have any themes or ideas on what to blog.I came to remind you all I'm still very much alive and tonight my blogging mood somehow got ignited while I was showering just now.So,let's don't stop here,I shall bring you and skim through my latest happenings.

-Liverpool totally owns City from top to bottom yesterday,with Torres brilliant brace and Kuyt last minute winner.Okay,continue with this we will be champion for sure!=)

-I'm officially back to school!!If my memory serves me correctly,school is not like this when my last stay here.Oh wells,this is my last month of school before my well deserved college life that I've been craving days and nights,so why not make it a perfect last month of school!

-Last week was a blast,I'm finally reunited with my Ipoh Malis for such a long time.In the meantime,there was always something left for me to pick up there.Memories,lesson,gifts,everything in anywhere!=)

-I started a diary last week,the main reason I lack of the mood to blog.Anymore details about the secret diary could be answered by me,personally..=)

That sums up about my encounter lately.Will be back with more interesting posts,looking forward to Wednesday,second day of my last-month school.Take care peeps,have a great week ahead!

See ya!

May God Has Grace Upon M'sia

2008-09-15T01:49:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow,we as malaysians might be witnessing something that would change our life forever.I as a undergraduate in high school would have something to share with fellow malaysians.

I'm not an advocate to any political parties.All I want is no more political allegations,racist remarks or anything that possibly hurt the bondage between m'sians.I'm truly grateful that what this country had offered and given me and I'm proud to said that I'm a Malaysian,but I'm sickened by the lust of power and the dirty tactics held by the powerful men and women in this country..With power comes with great responsibility,did they even consider fully ultilize their powers and government-given rights to serve their people,propel m'sia to the next stage,or is just trying to make themself loaded and had power over other people

All m'sia need now is peace.Peace that will keep citizens in check,harmony that will strengthen the bond of each citizens.They need no another new government to have a truly peaceful country..If everyone would have the thinking of having people first,then only themself..M'sia would be a better place by now..

If is God's will that M'sia should need a change of government,then I promptly stand by God's side and pray that everything will work out in His way

Kenn~confused

There Is Only One Winner

2008-09-12T18:27:00.000-07:00

Liverpool Vs Manchester United

Anfield

7.45 P.M.

Torres Vs Ferdinand

Gerrard Against Rooney

Reina Vs Berbatov

Catch it live all on ESPN

P.S.-Go Liverpool,Ya the best

Tagged by Sista-In-Law

2008-09-06T23:19:00.000-07:00

People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves..

Tag 8 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.Continue this game by sending it to other people.

1)Are you allowed to have a GF/BF
Of course I'm allowed to,I'm 18 this year!

2)Describe yourself in one word
Irresolute

3)Who would you pick,someone who really loves you,or the one you love?
What's the point of getting someone you don't like at all.Then,it's not love after all...

4)Have you ever loved someone BEFORE but never had the courage to tell him/her
Before,yes.Currently,yes too..

5)Does it feel good to love
Hell yea,if you get the chance to be with the *special someone*

6)What's the best thing to do with the one you love
Get on my Civic and drove her to a romantic restaurant..

7)What will you say to someone who doesn't want to believe you
Fine!Have it your way then...

8)Was ever a time that you tried to learn to love someone
Nope,love has it's own way of reaching my heart

9)Have you ever loved two person at once
Yess

10)What you say to playboys/playgirls
Cool man!Since when you get so good on this shitt...=)

P.S.-Aiyo,sista-in-law,Why tag kamu so many lovey-dovey punya.=D

As The Starlit Sky Begins To Shine,We Are Breaking Down

2008-09-01T22:55:00.000-07:00

What's the problem of falling so hard;
I love you more than the stars in the sky,
more than the air you breathe in,
more than anything else you could ever imagine.

What's the point of finding your Mrs Right;
Where you don't even know She's the right one for you,
Mrs Right or Mrs Right Now.

If She's the one;
Are you capable of being with her ever after,
Hold her hands tightly whenever you see each other,
Treat her like your better half,
Blend in her emotions and feelings,
Like two souls living in a single embodiment.

Like she said,I'm not her white charming prince after all

First Thing,Last Thing

2008-08-28T05:56:00.000-07:00

Life is not life unless you really decided what you gonna do upon your life.After a few days of thoughtful thinking,I kinda decided to take up A-levels..I haven't really discussed it with Aunt Steph yet,but I'm sure she will give me the fullest support I wanted to.After all,it is what I really dreamt of and A-levels is basically a must if I wanna further my studies as a lawyer in UK.I had my attention on the Taylor's Cambridge A-levels in Sri Hertamas,it is quite attractive in terms of the teachings and the activities they provide.Furthermore,the location of the campus provide a soothing environment to the students.The downfall would be the distance between my place and the campus,it is quite far in my opinion and I don't intend to drive to the campus everyday due to the costly parking fee...

Anyways,I will be visiting KDU tomorrow for further infomation on the A-levels they provide.KDU is not really my first-choice college,but because is really near my place,I think I have a go on that..Man,God knows where I wanna study at..Fellow reader,Feel free to leave any comment if you have a better idea where should I go?

On a completely unrelated note,I finally signed up for True Fitness..I will be working out with Lucas,Tim and Jon every Monday,Wednesday and Friday from 4 p.m to 6 p.m.Training in gym really used up my time wisely and makes my life more lively..Since after I signed up for gym,I have been having good sleep,due to the amount of workout I exert..It's great!!

So life suddenly turn quiet and still since Nicholas and Jeremy departure.Ironically,I missed the teasing from them.LOL.Somehow,some part of my life went missing and gone.They are someone I always looked up to and to look when I'm in the lowest state of my life.My life would never be exciting as ever if they never appear in the chapter of my life,I seriously miss them..I miss Nicholas piece of word when I got into unwanted trouble,I miss Guru love teachings when I suddenly got screwed by her..I missed the moment they got together and teased me.It's not that I really like to tease by them,somehow the teasing become part of my life..

People Always Leave,I agreed

How To Save A Life

2008-08-24T07:16:00.000-07:00

That's the reason why you have friends...

When you are young,you crazy with them

Poker,Beer,Chicks

Thanks guys,ya the best

You let me know the real definition of friendship

P.S.-Nanas,Yik and Jon rocks too.....haha

Since we met its been you and I, a tear for a tear baby eye for an eye and u know that my heart gonna cry if you leave me lonely cause u not just my friend,your my homie

Is It Real Or Just Another Crush

2008-08-24T06:30:00.000-07:00

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside..
It was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility that you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know..

[Chorus]
Do you ever think when your all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath when I look at you
Are you holding back, like the way I do
Cuz I try and try to walk away,
But I know this crush ain't goin away, goin away

Has it ever cross your mind
When we're hangin spending time girl
Are we just friends
Is there more, is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last,
Last forever, forever

[Chorus]

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know..

Do you ever think when your all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath when I look at you
Are you holding back, like the way I do
Cuz I try and try to walk away,
But I know this crush ain't goin away x5

David Archuleta-Crush

Nah,stop dreaming Kenneth..She has absolutely no interest on you,might as well get your heads off and concentrate on something else..She is just another unwanted crush,or maybe something else

Sometimes,I feel like not missing you at all,but when I set foot in KL,my mind is all over you.I wish I could bring you to meet my family,my friends,but deep down in my heart I know I missed the best chance to get closer to you

Could God or someone offer another chance to me,I will tell you what I felt about you,I fell for you since the day I met you in Jusco.Since that day onwards,my life went on a dramatic change

If you could feel what I feel now,read what I'm writing now
Who cares about the world,when your hands and mine are tight together
Who cares about life,when we could always stare at each other
Who cares about study,when we could spend each and every single moment of our life together

I wanna.....

2008-08-16T08:39:00.000-07:00

Going back to Ipoh in less than 24 hours,there is so many things I wanna do and accomplished in such a short staying in ipoh.FYI,I will be out of KL from 16th August till 22nd August..Yesss,exactly one day before Nickys and JammyG departure to America..(I came back early just for ya all and be proud of that=))

Aiyo,there so many things I wanna do in ipoh,but I strongly felt that in my heart I am not capable to complete it all,or maybe I just list it all up and set a reminder for myself..

I wanna spend my precious times with my parents.
I wanna get out of my current melancholy state I am now by throwing myself into parties.
I wanna have the good`old days reflected upon my own eyes.
I wanna finish my From Promise To Power and A Long Walk To Freedom.
I wanna fulfill my promise towards Sensei and bring her to a nice cool restaurant with her husband.
I wanna blog about Nickys and JammyG farewell.
I wanna make cameroon trip as fun as possible.
I wanna have a nice enjoyable dinner with my good old kakis!
I wanna see her
I wanna interact with her

I'm gonna be the love that gonna last
And be the one that got your back
Ain't nothing never that bad that we would be together
And though we both made our mistakes
And some we never wish we made
But we'll be okay if we just stay together

I'm Slipping Into the Lava

2008-08-10T06:08:00.001-07:00

Coz I'm Burning Up

Burning Up,For You Baby..=)

-Stay Tune For Nicholas Farewell,9th of August,2008

My Thoughts Are Free To Go Anywhere,But It's Surprising How Often They Head In Your Direction

2008-08-01T08:58:00.000-07:00

Right now,I don't even have the slightest infatuation to post about my daily life.Hate to deny it,but truly this week of mine went rather peaceful(or should I said rather humdrum)=/ which I don't really enjoy it..

Tomorrow is always something I could look forward to in this boring week.If my memory doesn't serves me wrong,I think I'm going out with the usual gang.It's been a long time since we went out together.I think we are getting back to old school again..Movies + Nando's

I have came to a point to grasp a sense of loneliness.The time we share gets longer proves that we are enlarging the bond between us.Does it mean more anguish and depress await us when we are parting with our loved ones..I've been missing her terribly..Man,she didn't even say goodbye to me.I was draged into a melancholy state by the way she treats me,interacts with me..Fcuk,do I deserve all this shyt!!

So,This was basically what I felt throughout the almost complete week.Expectation was in tomorrow outing,I have faith I would initiate something that have long lost in my heart-answers and self-confidence..

Sorry about this post,I thought I would bring something unusual in my blog as always,happiness and gratification to my faithful readers..but I'm really kinda lost right now.Don't worry if ya all don't get a single thing out of this post,it is meant for me to read it in later times.

Someone reminded me something about we being had a reason being born in this world.Don't ever let go of your dreams just to fufill or satisfy other beings,showing them that their best for you may not really the best you could have for yourself..I failed this so many times,and I'm really ashamed for myself it took me such a long time to realize it..

At least,I was cautioned now..

One Love,Undivided

2008-07-26T08:18:00.001-07:00

Everybody is smiling

Just Like Old Times

Maybe the really last time for Inner Circle for many years to come

Thanks Guys and Girls~

Ya the best

Friendship

2008-07-26T05:55:00.000-07:00

Yesterday we had one of the 'inner circle' reunion due to the fact is our beloved leader-Jeremy Gan 18th birthday.The bash was held in Bora Asmara,to me is the perfect setting for a birthday party.Strangely enough,I don't feel any sense of surprises from Jeremy..Maybe he had predicted all this??

We arrived at the venue around 8 and off we settled in..It's been ages since I spent some time with my inner circles.Furthermore,almost everybody is around.I wondered did God really glanced at my previous post?..Throughout the party,I had fun interacting with everybody.I felt that we are somehow different compare to who we are two years ago,but still we are the crazy inner circle.Fun is in our cell all the time..I really touched when I beamed at the scene that have long lost for two years.

Oppps,let's not indulge in me for so much today,cause this post is meant for our Ol'dear Guru

As usual,we will let the picture do the talking.Basically,we just snap till we drop in the whole party..Flashes are everywhere and I had a pair of real stressed up eyes after the party.Still,I like it

Our hero also manage to fulfill our little wish by posing with us all the time,Enjoy!~

There's still lot more in my disk,but I'm just too lazy to reveal to you guys,Ohh well.I was real uber satisfy for Jeremy as he had some of his best moment shared with us..Truly,he deserved this party.I remember those days I asked myself"Did Jeremy planned to have one birthday bash of his own as he had organized for the rest of us?"Well,I think his smiles is in the picture reveal how happy he was yesterday=)

Hey Guru,Thanks for being my buddy all the time.Though I always exposed my mistakes and falseness in front of you,you never failed to look down on me and as always,forgives me..You are not afraid to being frank with me,correcting my mistakes,telling me which part of my life I screwed up.I truly appreciated it!For everyday in my life,I am always doing catching up in my life,try to be on par with you in everything.I just feel edgy whenever I am beside you.You make me strive even harder,so I would proud to call you my friend.Till now,I'm still striving hard as usual.Like you said,I am not really good with words,I hope that you would understand what I try to convey.=)

Rest assured that I will be checking you from time to time even though you are leaving,and I hope all the stabbing u did to me after all,is just a joke.Lol.Take care my friend,if you are reading this.Enjoy the rest of the days you have in M'sia with your lovest and dearest ones.

~Friendship is like a violin;the music may stop then,but the string will last forever..

Inner Circle,Reunited!

2008-07-26T00:42:00.000-07:00

Here's a little sneak peek what's my next post gonna be?

A pic taken by our'just legal birthday boi'

The first pic by him at 25th of July,2008

My love guru...

Stay Tunes~

It's Like Moving Mountain

2008-07-21T01:17:00.000-07:00

Im really busy lately,even on weekends.Work,books,movies never failed to kill my time that much since the beginning of this month.So in the other hand,I kinda abandon my blog for like few days.Hope he doesn't hates me.lol

Before I started on this post,I was doing some blog hopping,my usual warm up session before I start blogging..Guru posted his latest post and something just sparks in my heart.Suddenly,I reminisced about my past,memoirs,dilemma.How does it feel like to leave everything behind you have built for 18+ years,to accept a greater challenge,a higher mountain?I'm sure Nick and Guru will have many mountains to climb,many challenges to overcome in the future.I have faith in them that they are more than prepare to study in US.Best of luck to them =)

I was in this kinda situation two years ago.I remembered that time I really not feel like going anywhere except staying in my hometown.I won't be able to see my family,friends and her..It's uncomfortable,uneasy for me.I would be very much pleased to spend my last two years of high school with my buds in ipoh..Anyhow,the decision was finalised and I have to go to KL.I had a deep sigh to myself when my mum gave the final approval.

Well,life in KL was not that hard and complex after all.It's totally,100% FUN..One of my dreams was granted evetually i reached there,I finally had siblings n my home!!!Due to the fact I was the only son,I was jealous of people around me hanging with their siblings.No more those shyt in KL,as I will be very busy with Nick,Luke and Melanie.The feeling of having someone of same thinking n your home makes hell lot of different.Home is not dead bored anymore compare to ipoh.=)..The bestest part is we three boys will have this dirty little secrect talk everynight before our sleep..This is the time we really go uncensored and spread out what is in our heart..From Lovey to Dovey,We covered everything..lol

With friendly smiles and kind heart,I never failed to know some good buddies in my new school.People in my school is just so easy to mix with.I was welcomed into the so called inner circle in 2005 and that's one of the greatest day of my life..We did things together like a family,oragnized by the leaders of the inner circle..That year won't come so smooth if I hadn't knew this bunch of people.Tuesday,badminton;Friday,Tropicanna,each day is like a bonding day for us to get to know each other better..This precious memories composed by the inner circle will eternally stucked in my head cause they had given me one of the best years of my high school life..Thx

In the other hand,I thought the friendship I built in Ipoh will just shattered into pieces.Maybe we will just be like Hi-Bye friends.That was really a moment I doubted about my friends.After all,I was made to pay for my mistakes..=).I truly owed them a lot due to the fact they never let the distance to harm our friendship.They won't bother keep on updating me with their current life..After two years,we are still as crazy as ever..Criming wherever we go,hooking up the hottest chicx around the town..What can I elaborate more about this unbreakable bondage we shared..The fact that we were living apart strengthen our friendship and makes us more like true moving friends.=)

Family..This word have so much significant meaning in my life after I had move to KL.Back in Ipoh,I felt remorse about the attidude I had towards my family.My parents was treated rudely by their own son.I can't even believe the things I had said to them back then.Maybe God forsaw all this and sent me to KL,to make up all my mistake,and ultimately to change me to a better person.I get to to know God better in KL due to the influence of my new found family here and I appreciate God the fact my Dad and Mum is the bestest parents I could ever have in my life.They absolutely made the right decision to send me to KL.Right now,I love them more than anything else and I wouldn't do a single thing to hurt them..I always hold a grudge towards my dad back then and felt that he has many weaknesses in his life,but now I felt proud and privileged to become his son and wanted to live up to his expectations and become just like him.=)..Im speechless when it comes to my mum,shes just so great in everything,a lovely mum with a kind heart,her unceasing love is like the bestest gift I could ever had.I enjoyed the time where we spend time chit chatting on the phone all night long.The fact I'm the only son makes me get all the love and never ever shared it to others.Yes,I'm selfish and greedy..=)

As I was checking in my laptop,I just realized I don't even had a family pic of my own.Absolutely a fatal mistake(I thought of posting it and shared it with you all).Guess I'm gonna hire Nick for a bit of camera shooting this week(They are coming this week,can't wait!)

I was very satisfied with myself for all these years,cause I have been growing both in family's and God's eyes.I can't said that I'm perfect now,but I'm a much better person compare to the Kenn two years ago..Theres some hard path I need to choose,but glad I chose the perfect one~.Thanks to the guidance and the help of the people all around me.They are the main motive why I wanna strive to become better in everywhere of my life.

Lastly,I in my heart hold no regrets in coming to KL.After all,I may not be blogging here if I choose to stay in ipoh.I would not be me myself.Glad that God how He steered things around me to make my life more meaningful..Truly thankful

~Dedicate to those who played a part in Kenneth's life and navigate his life to fullness and betterness~

Which Side Are You On?

2008-07-16T01:07:00.000-07:00

Why So Serious?

The Mayhem Starts Tomorrow

-Stay tune for updates

There's Just Something About The Way You Love Me

2008-07-10T04:03:00.000-07:00

http://www.soulofindie.blogspot.com/

This is a blog dedicated to all my true music lover friends-is the perfect place you could find your own personal tunes,is a place where true music lovers will gather.This is a musicblog created by my dear friends that is passionate about music,and hope to share their tracks of life to people around the world.The blog mainly composed of artist that is consider 'Unsung Heroes' in the music industry,that is fully dedicate to music..The blog consist of a variety of songs,so you wil find your favourite tunes..

Personally,I enjoy the music in it..It has a different kind of feeling compare to the singles or hits I listen all along..Especially Varsity FanClub,do enjoy the song while you reading this..You might be attracted to it!!Soulofindie accept any comments and sincerely hope that the main motive of it will continue to pass on to different parts of the world.=)

Finally,If you are reading this..Do spend some time on soulofindie.A few minutes will do just fine..Download some tunes from there then as time goes by you will visit them whenever you are online,just LIKE ME!!

Take care guys,will be back soon with interesting posts..=)

Vivo Singapore!

2008-07-03T07:11:00.000-07:00

Vivo,Here I come!

Vivo City-the newest attraction of Singapore and the main reason for the trip to there,just can't wait for it.Sorry guys,I'm too tired to blog due to the restless day I had,but certainly be back with the much anticipated Singapore trip review..I had a feeling I would get something good at there..

So,guys and girls.May you all have an enjoyable weekend ahead.You all truly deserve it if you are all striving hard to achieve your own respective goals,trust me!!=)

Right now,my mind is all over her,just want her be by my side.The sad fact is that I know she won't be reading this,but still I wanna express these unexpose feelings to her..

Today I love you more than ever,tomorrow I will love you even more.I need you more than ever;I want you more than ever

Do I deserve her???

Spain Heals The Pain =)

2008-07-01T01:10:00.000-07:00

It takes 24 years for them to finally be the top of Europe

It takes a team of with quick passes and smooth skill to end the hoodoo

It take a El Nino to finally kill off the Germans long winning mentality

First of all,Im really sorry the delay of this particular post.I knew I should have blogged it on yesterday is today,but I was too tired yesterday due to the fact I stayed up until 5 for the match.Anyways,I well satisfied by the result and is just the perfect ending any Spain and Liverpool fans could craved for..=)

The main reason Spain got up ahead of Germany in this final is all about the strength of the midfield.Spain's midfield just conquer the pitch almost the whole game,and in the end the Germans is left with a broken heart to mend..Spain's midfield is more active,movement is good compare to the Germans..Ballack and the gangs was playing below par compare to Xavi Hernadez and Cesc Fabregas they all..Credits to the Germans too though they failed to lay their hands on the trophy,but a good tournament for them..=)

All credits should be given to our Spanish new hero-El Nino..He was so quiet the previous matches,and out he go in the final.The brilliant goal from him in the final is the best answer he could answer to the critics.I was exhilarated at that moment when he scored the only goal,everything just stopped suddenly as if theres no time in our world..After that,I dared to dream that they will crowned champions of Europe..I came in the match with a feeling that the Germans gonna snatched this one up because the Spaniard will be the under-achiever if they were to be called the favourite and the squad is young.But they just amazed with the slick passes and wizardry dribbling,and of coure Torres' top class finish..

Finally,the Euro ends with what I desire the most-Spain won and Torres score the winning goal in final.I truly thanked God for the fact that Torres won't end the season empty-handed..Haha..Attacking football reamined the biggest winner in this tournament,Spain victory run may lead to a rejuvenation of the long lost attacking play,I strongly hope that many coaches will witness this and add in these essential essence to their own respective team..We fans will enjoyed it for sure..=)