My heart is beating faster as usual whenever I go online, knowing that you have a chance of seeing my email. What reaction would you give? Is half a year sounds timely enough for you already? I'm obviously hoping for something.
I really do hope I could have a reply from you, in the end, I'm just following my feelings, it might hurts you but it is something I know I have to do, cause you are still everywhere to me.
I really had to thank Phebe for that night, she is really someone to count on. All along I thought of her as like some nerdy head, but she knows more about me compare to myself. She knows my feelings for you is substantial, and I have been spending half of the year searching my heart back, never know that all along it never sways or moves an inch.
Weird thoughts starting to come up from my mind, thinking of there is a slight possibility you happen to not checking your mailbox, or your eyes may play a trick or twits on you. I chose to believe that you actually saw it and you obviously needs time to think through it. I don't mind waiting on, as long you give me a reply.
I walk past to the place where I used to wait for public transport today, there was the time when we are like bubble and gum. The waiting pole is still there, but obviously things are very much different already. We can be two different entity living in a small world but fails to intersect, I wonder such things would crossed your mind once in a moment.
Do you still remember those times when we were really enjoying ourselves? To me, I thought of it all the time.
Stuck in the moment
It's been ages since I last typed a word here. I guess this blog is long deserted right now, even by its owner. That serves the purpose of this post, cause I absolutely don't want anybody to read what I will penned later on. I know it's kinda weird for me to say this, but this is my story. I authored it, and I will be my own reader.
It's been a long time since I really studied. Its kinda like an excuse for me to blog right now, because I'm suppose to squeeze all my brain cells right now. Yeah, blogging a while won't hurts right, Kenneth Cheng?
Let's see, what happenned since the last time I blogged. Fall out with you, got on with collegemates, saw Alonso, watched iron man 2, went Hong Kong? I just realised those are the little things I wanna shared with you, but lets make my blog as a communication mechanism for both you and me.
It's weird that its almost half a year we didn't talk, but every motion or notion that you utter still linger in my heart, strongly and persistently. I don't know what this weird feeling is? It's more like I missed your presence besides me, I missed those times when I will be your listening ear endlessly. When I would just sneak downstairs just to call you, speak softly so that I won't woke my aunt up. We humans are like these right? We only truly miss someone and appreciates that person's worth, only if we lose her/him.
Changing the world is always my dream, did I told you about it? I still think that this world is propelling, but its not the ideal world I want my future generation to live in. You might be laughing at me right now, talking about changing the world, where you can't even change the person around you. I might not know how to do it right now, but I think I will figure it out soon or later. I'm still learning.
Right now, those haunting memories came back to me. You said I was a different person to you, I was fake, I was always interrupting people's problem, I was always choosing sides. To be honest, I tried changing, and may you be the judge of that. I still remember I posed you a question, will our friendship continues, you told me to give you some time. Is half a year enough already?
I know, sometimes maybe a simple text will do. like a How are you? How you doing? Truth is that I just can't bring myself to you at the moment, but I never give up on our friendship. Your facebook page is always a place I look on to, I was real happy you are propelling too. I'm glad, honestly.
Hardship may comes, but always remember you have your family to depend on. If your family happens to fail you, you could always count your friend. Your life was blessed with sooo many good friends, so cherished them. Nah, its crap to say all this old man shit, I know you will. You know, Kenneth is still Kenneth. =)
On a brighter note, I like this girl right now. I always wanted you to know her, but too bad I only had feelings for her after we two fall out. She is a nice, pretty, sweet, loving, kind one. I bet given a chance, a whole new situation. You two would be good friends, and guess what she's from KL. I still remembered you are asking me why can't I just like girls in KL. That reminds me of old time.
While I was typing, the times we shared together just kept flashing in my mind. Sometimes, I would just look at your pictures and laugh like shit, simple grin, or the usual small laugh. I really missed you as a friend, it hurts that the method right now is the only way reaching out to you.
Enough of those whining, gonna get some sleep soon. I felt so relaxed right now, its like we had just talked. hahaha, still thanks and sorry.
It's been a long time since I really studied. Its kinda like an excuse for me to blog right now, because I'm suppose to squeeze all my brain cells right now. Yeah, blogging a while won't hurts right, Kenneth Cheng?
Let's see, what happenned since the last time I blogged. Fall out with you, got on with collegemates, saw Alonso, watched iron man 2, went Hong Kong? I just realised those are the little things I wanna shared with you, but lets make my blog as a communication mechanism for both you and me.
It's weird that its almost half a year we didn't talk, but every motion or notion that you utter still linger in my heart, strongly and persistently. I don't know what this weird feeling is? It's more like I missed your presence besides me, I missed those times when I will be your listening ear endlessly. When I would just sneak downstairs just to call you, speak softly so that I won't woke my aunt up. We humans are like these right? We only truly miss someone and appreciates that person's worth, only if we lose her/him.
Changing the world is always my dream, did I told you about it? I still think that this world is propelling, but its not the ideal world I want my future generation to live in. You might be laughing at me right now, talking about changing the world, where you can't even change the person around you. I might not know how to do it right now, but I think I will figure it out soon or later. I'm still learning.
Right now, those haunting memories came back to me. You said I was a different person to you, I was fake, I was always interrupting people's problem, I was always choosing sides. To be honest, I tried changing, and may you be the judge of that. I still remember I posed you a question, will our friendship continues, you told me to give you some time. Is half a year enough already?
I know, sometimes maybe a simple text will do. like a How are you? How you doing? Truth is that I just can't bring myself to you at the moment, but I never give up on our friendship. Your facebook page is always a place I look on to, I was real happy you are propelling too. I'm glad, honestly.
Hardship may comes, but always remember you have your family to depend on. If your family happens to fail you, you could always count your friend. Your life was blessed with sooo many good friends, so cherished them. Nah, its crap to say all this old man shit, I know you will. You know, Kenneth is still Kenneth. =)
On a brighter note, I like this girl right now. I always wanted you to know her, but too bad I only had feelings for her after we two fall out. She is a nice, pretty, sweet, loving, kind one. I bet given a chance, a whole new situation. You two would be good friends, and guess what she's from KL. I still remembered you are asking me why can't I just like girls in KL. That reminds me of old time.
While I was typing, the times we shared together just kept flashing in my mind. Sometimes, I would just look at your pictures and laugh like shit, simple grin, or the usual small laugh. I really missed you as a friend, it hurts that the method right now is the only way reaching out to you.
Enough of those whining, gonna get some sleep soon. I felt so relaxed right now, its like we had just talked. hahaha, still thanks and sorry.
Hikari
I wonder what LCL stands for all the time?
Why you need to share your very own existance with beings that are different with you,
So,you could just have absolute knowledge on what the person besides you are thinking.
I prefer thoughts that I created exist within my boundary only,
so I can remain what they truly think about me.
Wouldn't it be a better place to live in,
Where people would decieved by their own fictionalised fantasy.
It reminds me of a song,Beautiful World.
I kinda understand why some people prefer to be instrumented right now.
It disposes of those sadness,along with what you been hoping for.
Love Conquers All
Forever You My Girl
Forever You My World
14th of December 2009
The story continues on.
Sorry.
I don't know I'm doing the right thing this time,
But,right now my blog is the only listening ear I could find.
Sorry for making you felt that way,
I absolutely have no ideas I could hurt that precious heart of yours.
Take care,guess we won't be seeing each other for a while,and for the time being,I will miss you.
But,right now my blog is the only listening ear I could find.
Sorry for making you felt that way,
I absolutely have no ideas I could hurt that precious heart of yours.
Take care,guess we won't be seeing each other for a while,and for the time being,I will miss you.
A Kiss That I Never Wanna Miss
Life is all about giving out.The Wedding Dress still keeps playing in my head like crap.Something like paying tax,it's unavoidable.
Felt the urge to update my blog,but I'm deprived of inspiration currently.Trying to gain some sleep,but think that is such a waste of time.
Watching the video countless of times,but never failed to get bored with it.
Juggling my phone with both hands,figuring is it the right time to text you,at the same time worrying about you.
Looking at the countless people that kept passing by each day,wondering would I met you accidentally
Driving the same path over and over again,but never failed to discover new enlightenment within it.
On a completely unrelated note,going back to ipoh this thursday,but loved ones are having exams.Shuckks
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