My heart is beating faster as usual whenever I go online, knowing that you have a chance of seeing my email. What reaction would you give? Is half a year sounds timely enough for you already? I'm obviously hoping for something.
I really do hope I could have a reply from you, in the end, I'm just following my feelings, it might hurts you but it is something I know I have to do, cause you are still everywhere to me.
I really had to thank Phebe for that night, she is really someone to count on. All along I thought of her as like some nerdy head, but she knows more about me compare to myself. She knows my feelings for you is substantial, and I have been spending half of the year searching my heart back, never know that all along it never sways or moves an inch.
Weird thoughts starting to come up from my mind, thinking of there is a slight possibility you happen to not checking your mailbox, or your eyes may play a trick or twits on you. I chose to believe that you actually saw it and you obviously needs time to think through it. I don't mind waiting on, as long you give me a reply.
I walk past to the place where I used to wait for public transport today, there was the time when we are like bubble and gum. The waiting pole is still there, but obviously things are very much different already. We can be two different entity living in a small world but fails to intersect, I wonder such things would crossed your mind once in a moment.
Do you still remember those times when we were really enjoying ourselves? To me, I thought of it all the time.
Stuck in the moment
It's been ages since I last typed a word here. I guess this blog is long deserted right now, even by its owner. That serves the purpose of this post, cause I absolutely don't want anybody to read what I will penned later on. I know it's kinda weird for me to say this, but this is my story. I authored it, and I will be my own reader.
It's been a long time since I really studied. Its kinda like an excuse for me to blog right now, because I'm suppose to squeeze all my brain cells right now. Yeah, blogging a while won't hurts right, Kenneth Cheng?
Let's see, what happenned since the last time I blogged. Fall out with you, got on with collegemates, saw Alonso, watched iron man 2, went Hong Kong? I just realised those are the little things I wanna shared with you, but lets make my blog as a communication mechanism for both you and me.
It's weird that its almost half a year we didn't talk, but every motion or notion that you utter still linger in my heart, strongly and persistently. I don't know what this weird feeling is? It's more like I missed your presence besides me, I missed those times when I will be your listening ear endlessly. When I would just sneak downstairs just to call you, speak softly so that I won't woke my aunt up. We humans are like these right? We only truly miss someone and appreciates that person's worth, only if we lose her/him.
Changing the world is always my dream, did I told you about it? I still think that this world is propelling, but its not the ideal world I want my future generation to live in. You might be laughing at me right now, talking about changing the world, where you can't even change the person around you. I might not know how to do it right now, but I think I will figure it out soon or later. I'm still learning.
Right now, those haunting memories came back to me. You said I was a different person to you, I was fake, I was always interrupting people's problem, I was always choosing sides. To be honest, I tried changing, and may you be the judge of that. I still remember I posed you a question, will our friendship continues, you told me to give you some time. Is half a year enough already?
I know, sometimes maybe a simple text will do. like a How are you? How you doing? Truth is that I just can't bring myself to you at the moment, but I never give up on our friendship. Your facebook page is always a place I look on to, I was real happy you are propelling too. I'm glad, honestly.
Hardship may comes, but always remember you have your family to depend on. If your family happens to fail you, you could always count your friend. Your life was blessed with sooo many good friends, so cherished them. Nah, its crap to say all this old man shit, I know you will. You know, Kenneth is still Kenneth. =)
On a brighter note, I like this girl right now. I always wanted you to know her, but too bad I only had feelings for her after we two fall out. She is a nice, pretty, sweet, loving, kind one. I bet given a chance, a whole new situation. You two would be good friends, and guess what she's from KL. I still remembered you are asking me why can't I just like girls in KL. That reminds me of old time.
While I was typing, the times we shared together just kept flashing in my mind. Sometimes, I would just look at your pictures and laugh like shit, simple grin, or the usual small laugh. I really missed you as a friend, it hurts that the method right now is the only way reaching out to you.
Enough of those whining, gonna get some sleep soon. I felt so relaxed right now, its like we had just talked. hahaha, still thanks and sorry.
It's been a long time since I really studied. Its kinda like an excuse for me to blog right now, because I'm suppose to squeeze all my brain cells right now. Yeah, blogging a while won't hurts right, Kenneth Cheng?
Let's see, what happenned since the last time I blogged. Fall out with you, got on with collegemates, saw Alonso, watched iron man 2, went Hong Kong? I just realised those are the little things I wanna shared with you, but lets make my blog as a communication mechanism for both you and me.
It's weird that its almost half a year we didn't talk, but every motion or notion that you utter still linger in my heart, strongly and persistently. I don't know what this weird feeling is? It's more like I missed your presence besides me, I missed those times when I will be your listening ear endlessly. When I would just sneak downstairs just to call you, speak softly so that I won't woke my aunt up. We humans are like these right? We only truly miss someone and appreciates that person's worth, only if we lose her/him.
Changing the world is always my dream, did I told you about it? I still think that this world is propelling, but its not the ideal world I want my future generation to live in. You might be laughing at me right now, talking about changing the world, where you can't even change the person around you. I might not know how to do it right now, but I think I will figure it out soon or later. I'm still learning.
Right now, those haunting memories came back to me. You said I was a different person to you, I was fake, I was always interrupting people's problem, I was always choosing sides. To be honest, I tried changing, and may you be the judge of that. I still remember I posed you a question, will our friendship continues, you told me to give you some time. Is half a year enough already?
I know, sometimes maybe a simple text will do. like a How are you? How you doing? Truth is that I just can't bring myself to you at the moment, but I never give up on our friendship. Your facebook page is always a place I look on to, I was real happy you are propelling too. I'm glad, honestly.
Hardship may comes, but always remember you have your family to depend on. If your family happens to fail you, you could always count your friend. Your life was blessed with sooo many good friends, so cherished them. Nah, its crap to say all this old man shit, I know you will. You know, Kenneth is still Kenneth. =)
On a brighter note, I like this girl right now. I always wanted you to know her, but too bad I only had feelings for her after we two fall out. She is a nice, pretty, sweet, loving, kind one. I bet given a chance, a whole new situation. You two would be good friends, and guess what she's from KL. I still remembered you are asking me why can't I just like girls in KL. That reminds me of old time.
While I was typing, the times we shared together just kept flashing in my mind. Sometimes, I would just look at your pictures and laugh like shit, simple grin, or the usual small laugh. I really missed you as a friend, it hurts that the method right now is the only way reaching out to you.
Enough of those whining, gonna get some sleep soon. I felt so relaxed right now, its like we had just talked. hahaha, still thanks and sorry.
Hikari
I wonder what LCL stands for all the time?
Why you need to share your very own existance with beings that are different with you,
So,you could just have absolute knowledge on what the person besides you are thinking.
I prefer thoughts that I created exist within my boundary only,
so I can remain what they truly think about me.
Wouldn't it be a better place to live in,
Where people would decieved by their own fictionalised fantasy.
It reminds me of a song,Beautiful World.
I kinda understand why some people prefer to be instrumented right now.
It disposes of those sadness,along with what you been hoping for.
Love Conquers All
Forever You My Girl
Forever You My World
14th of December 2009
The story continues on.
Sorry.
I don't know I'm doing the right thing this time,
But,right now my blog is the only listening ear I could find.
Sorry for making you felt that way,
I absolutely have no ideas I could hurt that precious heart of yours.
Take care,guess we won't be seeing each other for a while,and for the time being,I will miss you.
But,right now my blog is the only listening ear I could find.
Sorry for making you felt that way,
I absolutely have no ideas I could hurt that precious heart of yours.
Take care,guess we won't be seeing each other for a while,and for the time being,I will miss you.
A Kiss That I Never Wanna Miss
Life is all about giving out.The Wedding Dress still keeps playing in my head like crap.Something like paying tax,it's unavoidable.
Felt the urge to update my blog,but I'm deprived of inspiration currently.Trying to gain some sleep,but think that is such a waste of time.
Watching the video countless of times,but never failed to get bored with it.
Juggling my phone with both hands,figuring is it the right time to text you,at the same time worrying about you.
Looking at the countless people that kept passing by each day,wondering would I met you accidentally
Driving the same path over and over again,but never failed to discover new enlightenment within it.
On a completely unrelated note,going back to ipoh this thursday,but loved ones are having exams.Shuckks
Cause You Should Be My Lady
Wedding Dress-Taeyang(Big Bang)
I would argue
Then you would cry
As you are struggling,I would only get stronger
My heart aches behind these shadows
My face brightens up as I see your smile.
I'm worry that you might notice my feelings,
which you already did.I get scared,
that the gap between us would widen
I hold my breath,
bite my lips.
Throwing away my phone doesn't help,
cause it's the only way I could connect to you.
Once the music ends,you would be with him forever.
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn't come.
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore.
14th of November 2009.
The story continues on.
I'm Barely Holding Onto You
It's hard being left behind.I waited for Henry,not knowing where he is,wondering if he's okay.It's hard to be the one who stays.
-Clare
I know it's hard to wait,cause you might need to wait a lot more longer compare to people around you.But that's exactly what set you apart from others.The imperishable joy of seeing that plus one.That truly defines what true love is.
Enjoy the movie,it is relevant to everyone.Hate it or not,in some point of our life,we have to choose between moving on or waiting upon.What really differs between it lays on the mind of yours.
As Clare has waited her whole life,her determination breathe in new hope to my life.
Thx.
=)
She Is Falling Into History
Currently listening to Falling Into History-Avril Lavigne
I always believe words and songs are the best way to change people lives.I write endlessly,to see people around have a shot in his life,rather than conforming to the social standards.I wanted those I cared to be different,to be a positive examplatory figure which everyone would find joy in knowing them.
I serenade,to witness the joy of others.The satisfaction manifests through their smile is a mesmerizer to my heart.What matters the most is the intention of the singer.As long as they see joy in the eyes of their spectators.
I never thought this could really happen,I have to agreed time has a way of passing by.People always leave,that's why there are heartbreaks visible everywhere you go.Maybe you are still in love with him,but the fact of not comprehending each other well enough serves as a barrier between you two.He cares about you more than his own life,it is a drawback for you.Being confined by love,you felt that it is a pain.
The hand of him tried to reach you desperately,but all he sees is your shadow.It's not the undoing of you nor him,but the sin of being felt divided.
People are struggling,so do I.A small degree of hope could turn into love.Maybe that's why you two fell in love.But now,he is falling into history.Phone calls can solve nothing,begging in front of you seem meaningless.
Till a point,where people forget about the existence of your love.Pictures are the only best proof that you two indeed shared a bond together.That is history.
When the guitar is being strummed beside me,Lavigne's vocal swirling around my ears,saying that "Im define,confined by love."Sadness starting to give birth to itself again.I'm quite a emotional person,and I always relate stuffs to myself,blame me for that.To think again,being a loser in love sounds fair enough,eventualy you don't really have to take a risk or chance,fearing that you will lose that plus one of yours.I should feel more content about myself,please with what I'm having already.Rather than taking a risk without knowing its consequences,because a fading image of yours from my sight is the last thing I would want to witness.
On a completely unrelated note,I was hooked up by this song Falling Into History-Avril Lavigne.It really do describes how everyone should feel after a major collision of hearts,and somehow I found it quite relevant to people around me.Sometimes,letting go is a mean for bringing you back,and time is always the solution to something that seemingly insoluble.Each times I listen to it,it seems there is a different meaning being conveyed in my mind from this crazy beautiful song.
There's this particular verse I'm quite fond of.
I never thought that I'd say,that I don't really miss you.I lived,I breathed your breath through me.Time has a way of passing by,until I don't remember why or how to hurt for you.Love's pain has gone somewhere,and I'm finally leaving it here.
Sometimes,I think I'm a bit busybody,involving myself into your ordeal.You have the absolute right to feel mad about it,this I can't take away from you.I'm sorry,I failed to outlook your status,and I'm being too objective.
I thought about a person now,somehow.I told you,my ambition is always to take pictures of you all,post it on my blog,and make it to a song,but think I still have a long way to go.Right?S?
A world where people I care about are happy,sadness ceased to exist in them.It's a tough path.
The Most Precious Thing You Have Given Is You,Yourself.
If I can't see you, if I can't be with you.Don't you dare start getting lenient with your thoughts,because this heart belongs to you and only you..
Just something I thought of while I'm driving home,yess I tend to be more poetic and emotional when I'm alone.That's me.
Sometimes,you think of those memories you composed of so far.It is what makes you who you are.Though people will always leave,but things that we did together,went through before.The thought of missing or reminiscing is the utmost love you can offer to that one person.Though you two may break apart,but the memories are substantial,it may not have a tangible form,but its clear to you both it really did happen.
Sometimes it takes a while,or it may takes forever,but this is life.If only you could define your love towards that one person,and I told myself I'm always willing to walk that distance.
I hopped to that loser prom king's blog,and I happened to find out,despite all these self-acclaimed growth.I'm still very much behind him.He is always someone I wanted to be,admire the most,and a big brother to me.He is always that mountain I need to climb,but it seems that there is always a distance between us.
I felt satisfied,because there is always a perfect person I could sing or boast about.
Thanks again,loser.
Im gonna hit off with one of his famous quote,that very much goes relevant to what I feel now.
Love And Time Are The Best You Can Give Me.
It feels strange sometimes,even a more than a year old post never failed to inspire me.May it inspire you stalkers in making every decisive decision in your life.
=)
To The World You Maybe The One Person,But To KC You Are The World To Him.
Much has happened these few days,especially the one hell of a night we had on saturday.That was probably one of those highlights.I love it when my boys are smiling,cause when they are happy,even how down and sad deep inside of me,there will be a shed of light that was created out of nothing to brightens my day up.I always wanted to witness a miracle,and that came in the form of them.Thank you.
People are so busy with themselves.You wake up knowing that your whole day is tight,school,work,leisure,sports,reading.Thus,we failed to keep sight on those things that are truly important.Family,friends,love.When there is time to meet each other,that two hours couldn't even compesate the days you all didnt see each other.A dinner wouldn't patched back everything.A simple phone call can't have the same effect as meeting face to face.Despite all these,we continue to be selfish.
Masking yourself to the person you fond of doesn't make it sound so nice,because it's a deception.Your loved one is living a lie,and what goes around comes around.
I'm glad I'm free of all those pressure,that is so intense till I see people breakeven from it.I'm still the me that tries to fake my way in,cram every loves one in my tiny lens,be the best of both worlds.
I felt that sometimes people around me compelled to do somethng which I don't like it.I felt like being all my best friend's wedding photographer(for free),and continue to capture smiles and dreams to strangers,and travel around the world,to meet people I'm not destined to meet,and learn Latin dance too.And after everything,capture everything in words form and published it into a book.A book that can change at least a single soul towards his/her perspective of life.
But,I being born into a chinese family,and being the only son doesn't always get what I want.You gotta study for the sake of studying,earn big bucks and live your life like how your parents live it in front of your eyes.Tragically,that's like the mentality of chinese and possibly the synopsis of my life.
Tired of elders being conservative and the so called keeping your child safe in your hands.Sometimes you gotta live out your life,suffer the mistakes you have done or did,and accept the consequence of your actions.That's the true way of growing up.A simple desire of wanted to feel free and live with those I really care seems like an eternity road for me,speaking from a person who embraces the price of freedom.They are retards.
The more I grow,the more I learn from them,the more I think your actions are unacceptable.Till a point,you are forcing me to become a replica of you.I have to live a life that constantly remind of myself who I truly are.A reckless,carefree and concern friends KC.That's me,have a problem with that,cancel me,but don't paste yourself on me.A life that you lived is the last thing I wanna see in myself.
They think their method of educating is the only way,but they failed in seeing their own child's eyes,which wanted something that is not cliche as love.Materialistic love is a fucked up way to make up with your own child.Love is accepting what your child is,and ready to compromise in whatsoever situation,not using cane strategies,and insulting them till they have to be just like you in order to have a stand in this world.Your child is not just another barbie doll of yours when you used to play when you are young,they can choose to move their right hands if you ordered to move their left.This is life,live it out or kill yourself,not everything goes in your way of living.
This post is not meant for my parents,cause they are too nice and good to be criticize.Though they have their own flaws,I will learn to deal with it,as how they had compromised my ever-lasting flaws.This is true love.
=)
My friends may seem insignificant to you,a path which you want me to avoid walking,I replied with a smile could you please get off from my life.Those are the people I want to protect and love forever.Do not ever intervene in my life till a point I will hate you.
Right now,all that matters is my old man,lovely 49 years old beauty,and my ever-lasting IPOH friends.They are the pillar of my life,and they lived inside of me.
By the way,I'm still waiting that day I will truly embrace the meaning of freedom.
I may left out most of my good friends,but you know who you are,and believe it or not that you all are as important as them.
=)
Letting Go Is A Means Of Bringing You Back
Wowooooowowowowow
Tuesday-Malaysian Studies' Final
Wednesday-Moral Studies' Final
Saturday-Finally,My Boys Are Graduating.=)
Eventful week I would said.
On a completely unrelated note,taylors' dudes are having their A2 soon.The sky will be angry wtih me if I don't ever wish them luck,or do they need any these external aids.
To Lik,Sophia,Jun Xian,Daniel Ho and Jic Key.
All the best in your exams man,fork them like how you play life,and remember to surprise me after ya exam in HELP.I will act surprise though.God bless.
XD.
Now my turn to make things right,
Fudge you Economics,
Fornicate Law.
Gonna make my effort
Fornicate Law,
To A Person That I Don't See Often
Honestly,I'm envy of you,but most of all I'm truely glad that you are doing fine.Maybe it's because of everything I want to become is resided inside that magnificent personality of yours,and it manifests through that unbelievable charisma.
Thank you dude,you cheered me up,even without saying it out loud.
Your presence already had given me a clue how should I proceed.
Whenever I got screwed by love,I would thought of how amazing you two are perserving the standards of love.You gave me a glimpse of hope,hope of loving someone without boundaries.I felt sick you know,trying to do my best to cheer everybody up.Maybe I should retired a while,and refocus on something else,and for once,to be selfish.
You are one of the reasons why I never regretted going home-schooling
Thanks,loser.haha
Dead Rose Blooms In My Backyard
With every stike of lightning ,
Comes a memory that lasts,
Not a word is left unspoken,
As the thunder starts to crash,
Maybe I should give up.
Standing out in the rain,
Need to know if it's over,
Cause I would leave you alone.
I'm flooded with all this pain,
Knowing that I'll never hold you,
Like I did before the storm.
Before The Storm-Jonas Brothers
The last and only thing I could do now is to dedicate a song that is relevant to what you are going through now.
Lines,Vines And Trying Times
You felt great sometimes,for doing something stupid,just to make the plus one grin a little bit,it doesnt matter if it's just a split-second smile.As long as it happens.
People are stuck in this reality,wrapped in a space full of other people.People constantly trying to cheer each other up,just so they know.in the end theres is still somebody beside you that cares for your existance.
What if God gives you another chance to live out your life again.Would you become what you should become,or repeat your life again to justify what you had lived is the way of life.
There's so many things I wanna get it right,but somehow I had failed to get even one correct.There are lines,vines and trying times for me.
Price Of Freedom
The price of freedom,
It's like a limitless sky.
You may have reached it,
But gravity compels you back to gravity.
I guess I really should buck up now,after another tormenting lecturing by my aunt.Its painful because it is so relevant and compatible,that I was left speechless to counter back what she utters to me.
AS,you wanna piece of me.
Then,I just dance to the rhythm.
Study hard,collect the As,and price of freedom is yours.
Sounds easy,right?
KC,guarantee.
Crash And Burn
Thesedays I'm just nt myself,tried hard to study for the sake of studying.It's not working,I felt sick sitting in front with my notes and just prefer to be alone,a place where I can see no one,and where I could feel free to do anything.
I will be more than willing to sleep through all days,go all out on a journey,step the pedal as hard as my hood could sustain,and be freed from the restriction.A place where I could call home,where worn out jeans are everywhere,and CDs are all over my desk,and pictures of my dear ones are all around me.To be precise,I want my own personal place.I felt that people around me are edging me out,till a point they compel me till a point where I have no space to breathe anymore.
As I went college,different people that I met everyday.I felt that all my principles are being put on a test.Talking about to do whatever that floats my boat,I'm more like comprising myself to be compatible with different individual's stance.I'm tired of life actually,I wished someone that fully comprehend me could just poped up right now,and we will talk till day never meets night.
Its weird sometimes.Nowadays,people are so used to the word LOVE,as they can get on to relationship with anyone in anywhere at anytime and end it like a swift.Do you really mean it when you utter those 3 special words to that angel of yours at that time,or it is sudden infatuation that force you to it.Adding on to that,or are you just afraid of being alone,and you need some company and that so called "angel" of yours just happened to be in the right place at the right time?
I believe in the divine meaning of love,and people should appreciate in this ever changing world,they are able to find someone they truly love and being love in reply.That is the one and only reason why people should be together.Instead people find grounds to escape from love,they tend to blame and hurt others,it doesnt even matter if she/he is the one you loved before.When it comes to this kind of situation,you side with yourself more than your supposingly other half,to be in love is to be selfless towards each other.I can't said that you are selfish,which almost everybody is practicing now,but you are just idiotic in KC's eyes.Your failure to prevent tears rolling out from your loved one eyes,the excruciating pain that she/he has to endure just to reveice your one text that only worth a single penny,the irresistable desire to talk to you when you are just beside him/her,and with that cold heart you possesed,replied him/her with that obnoxious face of yours.
Remember those days when you were so much in love with her,you would go as far to a point that you are willing to sacrifice everything for her,just that she could dance with you gracefully on the dancefloor named LOVE.God never gives up people who don't gives up,in the end,you finally got what you crave the most,which is her love to you.I bet you must be feeling on top of the world right at that time,the indescripable joy you possessed which failed to contained inside that little heart of yours,I bet my tears will come out when I get the chance to witness it.Those are the tears of joy,from a guy who thinks like you.
There were good times in your relationship,but sadly bad times overweighed it.You did everything you could,but she is too difficult to compromise,and situation all around you obviously was not on your side.Yes,you gave up what you wanted the most.You chose to run away from that dancefloor,a dancefloor where obviously has its potential to grow.You ran without a single explaination,nor a single world,which left spectators like us very much in question and discretion.She was left alone on that dancefloor.A dancefloor where both of you had the best times of your life.I can see she is acting,trying to be cheerful.But its an act which fails to do its job.Deep in her heart,she felt lonely,truth is that,shes wants you back on the dancefloor and contunue the flow of the story between she and you.She is still dancing hard on the dancefloor,trying to win your heart back just like what you did to win hers last time.Its a dance so beautiful and mesmerizing,but as she sway that ever dazzling body of hers,tears continue to be visible around her.As nice as the move can be,its a depressing dance.A sight which all of us are not enjoying.Tears flowing out as I was watching her.Those are tears of sadness,where I couldn't protect those that I care.
To my friends who are attached,
Love isn't about becoming somebody else's perfect person.
It's about finding someone who makes you the best person you could be.
To my friends who are heartbroken,
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go,
The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.
To my friends and me who are afraid to confess,
Love hurts when you breakup with someone.
It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you.
But love hurts the most when the person you know has no idea how you feel.
To my friends who are still holding on,
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love,
Only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it.If he isn't worth it now he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now.
Let go.
I thanked most of my friends who making me become who am I now.You all made my life propel to another level and Im glad that we can become good friends,and I hoped that we will continue our journey for as long time can counts.
=)
I will be more than willing to sleep through all days,go all out on a journey,step the pedal as hard as my hood could sustain,and be freed from the restriction.A place where I could call home,where worn out jeans are everywhere,and CDs are all over my desk,and pictures of my dear ones are all around me.To be precise,I want my own personal place.I felt that people around me are edging me out,till a point they compel me till a point where I have no space to breathe anymore.
As I went college,different people that I met everyday.I felt that all my principles are being put on a test.Talking about to do whatever that floats my boat,I'm more like comprising myself to be compatible with different individual's stance.I'm tired of life actually,I wished someone that fully comprehend me could just poped up right now,and we will talk till day never meets night.
Its weird sometimes.Nowadays,people are so used to the word LOVE,as they can get on to relationship with anyone in anywhere at anytime and end it like a swift.Do you really mean it when you utter those 3 special words to that angel of yours at that time,or it is sudden infatuation that force you to it.Adding on to that,or are you just afraid of being alone,and you need some company and that so called "angel" of yours just happened to be in the right place at the right time?
I believe in the divine meaning of love,and people should appreciate in this ever changing world,they are able to find someone they truly love and being love in reply.That is the one and only reason why people should be together.Instead people find grounds to escape from love,they tend to blame and hurt others,it doesnt even matter if she/he is the one you loved before.When it comes to this kind of situation,you side with yourself more than your supposingly other half,to be in love is to be selfless towards each other.I can't said that you are selfish,which almost everybody is practicing now,but you are just idiotic in KC's eyes.Your failure to prevent tears rolling out from your loved one eyes,the excruciating pain that she/he has to endure just to reveice your one text that only worth a single penny,the irresistable desire to talk to you when you are just beside him/her,and with that cold heart you possesed,replied him/her with that obnoxious face of yours.
Remember those days when you were so much in love with her,you would go as far to a point that you are willing to sacrifice everything for her,just that she could dance with you gracefully on the dancefloor named LOVE.God never gives up people who don't gives up,in the end,you finally got what you crave the most,which is her love to you.I bet you must be feeling on top of the world right at that time,the indescripable joy you possessed which failed to contained inside that little heart of yours,I bet my tears will come out when I get the chance to witness it.Those are the tears of joy,from a guy who thinks like you.
There were good times in your relationship,but sadly bad times overweighed it.You did everything you could,but she is too difficult to compromise,and situation all around you obviously was not on your side.Yes,you gave up what you wanted the most.You chose to run away from that dancefloor,a dancefloor where obviously has its potential to grow.You ran without a single explaination,nor a single world,which left spectators like us very much in question and discretion.She was left alone on that dancefloor.A dancefloor where both of you had the best times of your life.I can see she is acting,trying to be cheerful.But its an act which fails to do its job.Deep in her heart,she felt lonely,truth is that,shes wants you back on the dancefloor and contunue the flow of the story between she and you.She is still dancing hard on the dancefloor,trying to win your heart back just like what you did to win hers last time.Its a dance so beautiful and mesmerizing,but as she sway that ever dazzling body of hers,tears continue to be visible around her.As nice as the move can be,its a depressing dance.A sight which all of us are not enjoying.Tears flowing out as I was watching her.Those are tears of sadness,where I couldn't protect those that I care.
To my friends who are attached,
Love isn't about becoming somebody else's perfect person.
It's about finding someone who makes you the best person you could be.
To my friends who are heartbroken,
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go,
The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.
To my friends and me who are afraid to confess,
Love hurts when you breakup with someone.
It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you.
But love hurts the most when the person you know has no idea how you feel.
To my friends who are still holding on,
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love,
Only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it.If he isn't worth it now he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now.
Let go.
I thanked most of my friends who making me become who am I now.You all made my life propel to another level and Im glad that we can become good friends,and I hoped that we will continue our journey for as long time can counts.
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Thanks.
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