People talked about heartbreaks when there's a fall in relationship.One heart gets the freedom and joy they longed for,and the other one was left with a broken heart to mend and wound to lick.What defines a true relationship or a feeling that you have for a particular person.I don't know any single of that.I thought I caught the glimpse of it in my process of growing up,but reality just compels me to unlearn everything and I'm back to square one.
What's the standard in love,a feeling that comes out of nowhere,or the fulfillment of seeing the one you care repay you with love,I don't know any of that before this..
I feel the wild wind blowing now,a demon toying with my heart.I felt betrayed when she utters those that I'm afraid,words are like a knife,sentences are like a spear,but I'm pinned down pragmatically to accept it as a fact.The fault to accept it reluctantly and obeying it soundlessly is the biggest mistake I ever conduct.
After all,I have very bad eyesight,that goes to what I envision too.I thought I saw light and grace in your eyes,but it turned out the other way round.Maybe my judgment was clouded,or my conscience itself created something out of blank,to allow me to see what I wanted from you.
It is a harsh and violent world,where people settles for second best,but they don't realize with just enough of determination and tenacity,they would ultimately at the threshold of their dreams.I always put it as a proverbs,a maxim of my life.In the end,I fell victim to my own ideology
If gravity is what makes us stand,then love is what makes us live.Love between families,between friends,between lovers,they are the potion of our life.I failed to comprehend you are not the one and only remedy I could have in my life..
Our life is like a clip,a motion picture.The world is a big stage where we are free to perform and be what we intend to be.For a moment my life is monotonous,a stage where I can find no one else.The tree I usually see after school,the path I need to walk back home,it never changes.You came from nowhere and gave me colors,the tone I very much needed for the rest of my life.Yes,you came and bless me with all that,but I had mistaken you as someone more than a friend.I treated you like an individual I would cherished forever,but life is too long to decide who you should be in my life,that caused us to fall apart.As I stated,there's still very much things I don't discern,but all I know is that I have to move on both for your good and mine.I admit I'm greedy and selfish,I don't feel like letting you slipped from my palm and just wished that I could stuck with you forever,but the love I had for you is far greater than that.It's my one and only wish to see you live freely and happily like a bird in the big blue sky.Having knowledge of that,I always felt that my presence in your life is more like a distraction and burden,I came in a form of demon to divert you.Nevertheless,I have confidence I can restore it,and there will come a time where we can sit down together beside a swaying tree,under the reflection of moonlight,and truly enjoy the very essence of our friendship..
Until this very moment,I still love you as much as I do,but your stance in my heart has slowly yet surely turned into an entity what in this world called friends.My life is always surrounding you,what would be the day when I truly let go of the one that gave me the color of my life..Until that day comes...Thanks,Emily
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Until this very moment,I still love you,but your stance in my heart has slowly yet surely alter into an entity we called in this world as best friend.May you find love in your life,and I'm more than happy to see you grow both in our friendship and your life,Emily.
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